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iqbal firdaus
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Sunday, April 30, 2006
now to address the issue closer to me. iqbal, i'm really sorry i didnt attempt talking to you and stuff in school. it just seems so hard with all that tests. and i simply dont know how to begin. calvin seems to be over k7 now and i just dont know what to do about it. without k7 and you, i feel that there is no one i actually understand around me. yes, there are new friends circulating around. but i know and we know that those are just good weather friends. we know that we're not serious about having them as friends. they just dont fit 'friends 4eva' you know. and now that everything's drifting apart, i seriously dont know what to do about it. its just hard for me to come between you and calvin. and without k7 in the class, it is very hard for me to that. even if k7's in class now, he'll probably form a trio with you and calvin. i just hope we can just talk like we used to. and stand up for rgs and mgs respectively. though i think my mgs stand is starting to get rocky. wells things arent smoothly, just hope someone would understand.
i've two matters to address, so i think i'll be posting twice. anyways, hsm, i dont think we should be talking about something that has already pass and there is nothing our quarrelling here can do to change the result. then i see no point in letting your friendship go sour over this alright? and jk, whether the guy gives k7 this chance or not doesnt show anything. if he was so noble in his doings, he doesnt need to tell others his intentions on doing so, others can see his intentions by themselves. and what's with you guys? its not like k7 didnt put his best foot forward during the match. yes, it might not have been perfect, but do you think he planned it that way? do you actually think that he wanted sji to be losing to ri? and so what do you get by saying that he's lousy? trying to tell others that sji has no one skillful and all we have are lousy players? well only way you can say someone's lousy is to be better than him. and to be better than him, prove it. come on. he played with you guys, dripped sweat, braced rain, shed blood, and now you put him down over a game? so what do you want him to do? go back through time? not sign up for the next otega cup? sit down and cry? come on. move on. you guys should be spending your time planning the next sji victory.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
heyy world.... im realli excited! ask me why! ask me why! cause 2moro's the ortega cup! hehex. get to play against ri.... can't wait. (though my inclusion in the team was by controversal means xP) so all u ppl out there frm earth,mars, and everywhere else! come down to support sji as we take on ri in what would surely be a entertaining and mouth-watering match. hahas! so wat r u waiting for! ohh yeahh, there's still so much time left for the game. hahas.... lolz.... 2moro afternoon ppl! >.<
-kEsAvAn
joga bonito
-kEsAvAn
joga bonito
Sunday, April 23, 2006
i'm sad. sighs. i really think right its of no use
being nice at all cause the more you are nice,
people tend to expect so much from you. it can
be really irritating at times. i can't smile or be
cheerful all the time right? i mean i'm no robot
programmed to be mr-happy-all-the-time.
i'm a human for goodness sake and when i
don't meet this expectations, people will think i
am a snob. like wtf. i have problems too you know.
what? you want me to say this when i'm down,
"HELLO WORLD! i'm very sad and depressed.
look at me smile! ((((: hahahaha! i just love being
depressed and put down, don't you? ((((:"
like that? sighs. last night was probably one of the
rarest ocassion when i broke down in public. the
faucet was just turned on. i can't control it.
and oh isn't taking someone else's stuffs WITHOUT his
consent considered STEALING? and the owner has every
right in the world to take it back? like hello! his iPod and
handphone are inside the damn thing. at least ask first.
okay fine i admit i might not be one of those manly guys
who are rough, rowdy and whatnot but that doesn't mean
i'm freaking gay you bastards. i told myself so many times
to ignore such effing judgement but i just can't take it any-
more alright. its too much. well if you want me to be man
enough and discard my gentleman/good boy image then
fine i'll make sure i'll include 'fuck' in every sentence i say.
but you know what. its all not worth it. i can't please practically
everyone cause if i do i'll be the most miserable man on earth.
i'll continue being 'gay' or as you call it cause thats me and if you
don't like it, fuck off.
being nice at all cause the more you are nice,
people tend to expect so much from you. it can
be really irritating at times. i can't smile or be
cheerful all the time right? i mean i'm no robot
programmed to be mr-happy-all-the-time.
i'm a human for goodness sake and when i
don't meet this expectations, people will think i
am a snob. like wtf. i have problems too you know.
what? you want me to say this when i'm down,
"HELLO WORLD! i'm very sad and depressed.
look at me smile! ((((: hahahaha! i just love being
depressed and put down, don't you? ((((:"
like that? sighs. last night was probably one of the
rarest ocassion when i broke down in public. the
faucet was just turned on. i can't control it.
and oh isn't taking someone else's stuffs WITHOUT his
consent considered STEALING? and the owner has every
right in the world to take it back? like hello! his iPod and
handphone are inside the damn thing. at least ask first.
okay fine i admit i might not be one of those manly guys
who are rough, rowdy and whatnot but that doesn't mean
i'm freaking gay you bastards. i told myself so many times
to ignore such effing judgement but i just can't take it any-
more alright. its too much. well if you want me to be man
enough and discard my gentleman/good boy image then
fine i'll make sure i'll include 'fuck' in every sentence i say.
but you know what. its all not worth it. i can't please practically
everyone cause if i do i'll be the most miserable man on earth.
i'll continue being 'gay' or as you call it cause thats me and if you
don't like it, fuck off.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
and i lost my favourite game..
and i lost my favourite game..
4th in heats..
AGAIN..
i found the answer to all the problems..
its just me..
sorry if i disappoint you..
maybe i'm just aint as good as you think..
i'm sorry..
goodbye to the high achievements hinyang..
tears and rain
by james blunt..
suits my feelings..
and i lost my favourite game..
4th in heats..
AGAIN..
i found the answer to all the problems..
its just me..
sorry if i disappoint you..
maybe i'm just aint as good as you think..
i'm sorry..
goodbye to the high achievements hinyang..
tears and rain
by james blunt..
suits my feelings..
Friday, April 07, 2006
And I'm Losing My Favourite Game...
And I'm Losing My Favourite Game...
Why?
Why me?
Why does it happen to the others?
Why do i believe in angels?
Why do i believe you're one of them?
Why do i believe only you can help me pull through?
Why?
Why aren't you here by me?
Why aren't you here to hold my hand, cross that last hurdle?
Why?
What are you busy with?
Why do you not sense anything?
Why do you always need me to tell you?
Why?
Why can't you just spend more time with me?
Why?
A thousand and one Questions.
Why must there be Questions within us?
Where do we find the Answers?
Do they crawl up to you?
Creep up to you?
Get sent through someone else?
Why does it always happen together?
Can't we just do without a word in the dictionary? Depression
And I'm Losing My Favourite Game...
Why?
Why me?
Why does it happen to the others?
Why do i believe in angels?
Why do i believe you're one of them?
Why do i believe only you can help me pull through?
Why?
Why aren't you here by me?
Why aren't you here to hold my hand, cross that last hurdle?
Why?
What are you busy with?
Why do you not sense anything?
Why do you always need me to tell you?
Why?
Why can't you just spend more time with me?
Why?
A thousand and one Questions.
Why must there be Questions within us?
Where do we find the Answers?
Do they crawl up to you?
Creep up to you?
Get sent through someone else?
Why does it always happen together?
Can't we just do without a word in the dictionary? Depression
Thursday, April 06, 2006
hrm. its been a long time since i blogged here ya?
ah wells. i'm updating now am i not?
okay so here goes...
yesterday was english oral. all of us took it
on the same day but ended at different times
due to the difference in time and index numbers.
and you know i was the last of THE last person to
sit for it. haha. and augy goh is a funny character. (x
and kesa. cheer up kay? your oral can't be THAT bad. (:
okay its been nearly a month now and i've yet to have a
decent conversation with you. a decent one where i don't
have this obligation to say something to you and then you
reply and it just ends there. sighs. its really sad that we are
kinda avoiding each other. i'm sorry for that. well I find it
saddening but somehow i can't display it. the feeling just
becomes numb. it is too drastic of a change and i'm fearful that
i may just lose one of my friends. bottomline : we need to talk.
good luck to hinyang for his nationals this coming week. (:
work done and
here i end.
iqbalFirdaus
ah wells. i'm updating now am i not?
okay so here goes...
yesterday was english oral. all of us took it
on the same day but ended at different times
due to the difference in time and index numbers.
and you know i was the last of THE last person to
sit for it. haha. and augy goh is a funny character. (x
and kesa. cheer up kay? your oral can't be THAT bad. (:
decent conversation with you. a decent one where i don't
have this obligation to say something to you and then you
reply and it just ends there. sighs. its really sad that we are
kinda avoiding each other. i'm sorry for that. well I find it
i may just lose one of my friends. bottomline : we need to talk.
good luck to hinyang for his nationals this coming week. (:
work done and
here i end.
iqbalFirdaus