i'm sad. sighs. i really think right its of no use
being nice at all cause the more you are nice,
people tend to expect so much from you. it can
be really irritating at times. i can't smile or be
cheerful all the time right? i mean i'm no robot
programmed to be mr-happy-all-the-time.
i'm a human for goodness sake and when i
don't meet this expectations, people will think i
am a snob. like wtf. i have problems too you know.
what? you want me to say this when i'm down,

"HELLO WORLD! i'm very sad and depressed.
look at me smile! ((((: hahahaha! i just love being
depressed and put down, don't you? ((((:"

like that? sighs. last night was probably one of the
rarest ocassion when i broke down in public. the
faucet was just turned on. i can't control it.

and oh isn't taking someone else's stuffs WITHOUT his
consent considered STEALING? and the owner has every
right in the world to take it back? like hello! his iPod and
handphone are inside the damn thing. at least ask first.

okay fine i admit i might not be one of those manly guys
who are rough, rowdy and whatnot but that doesn't mean
i'm freaking gay you bastards. i told myself so many times
to ignore such effing judgement but i just can't take it any-
more alright. its too much. well if you want me to be man
enough and discard my gentleman/good boy image then
fine i'll make sure i'll include 'fuck' in every sentence i say.

but you know what. its all not worth it. i can't please practically
everyone cause if i do i'll be the most miserable man on earth.
i'll continue being 'gay' or as you call it cause thats me and if you
don't like it, fuck off.