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Saturday, July 22, 2006

hahaha. what's up with the so many hellos dude? well as long you're happy and laughing.
i'm fine with it. anyway. yes, gayle is out of the competition although she totally doesnt
deserve the early exit. i would've booted out jasmine tye instead. bad hair, bad song.
well it was her worst night. i thought jay did well enough not to be in the bottom 3 cause
not all guys can pull off that daniel bedingfield song please. ahh wells. gayle nerva's out.
i just hope rahimah doesnt screw up next week. its jazz week i think.

yesterday was rhd. kinda fun. it was tiring too. plus 'twas a hot day. haha. mls ah? all i can
say is, quite alot of undercurrents going on. totally alright. sheesh.

rhd was love in the end. lol. (:

and apparently obs sabah (i mean IF i'm selected) would be on the 11th of November to the 23rd. anyone noticed anything? the group will be leaving on my birthday which is kinda
bleh. that date is like important, hello! but its okay, i guess. i'm cool with it, i think.
lol.

okay thats it for now. mugging awaits.
goodbye and good day!

fir

- penned this at 12:33 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

hello hello hello. alright i shall stop my retarded hello-ing act just for now, until the end of the post. sorry people, have been really busy recently, alot of my friends should know, although i have been trying to keep a low profile about it. its the canoeing training alright. eh today was quite alright a day. i made quite alot of new friends in the team though its quite hard to. eh havent have the time to come online these few days, and yesterday this stupid thing was down. eh i forgot what i want to say. but its alright. i could always talk about something else. hmmm i've competition on saturday, reaching my peak already, but dont really know if i'm like prepared for this competition. oh well. i guess i dont really like working with too much pressure. because it seriously sucks not being able to reach other's expectations. alright shall not think too much about it. hahas guess what. GAYLE rocks. she's cute. omgosh wished i was nineteen.

HINYANG
Gayle

- penned this at 10:05 PM

hello hello hello. alright i shall stop my retarded hello-ing act just for now, until the end of the post. sorry people, have been really busy recently, alot of my friends should know, although i have been trying to keep a low profile about it. its the canoeing training alright. eh today was quite alright a day. i made quite alot of new friends in the team though its quite hard to. eh havent have the time to come online these few days, and yesterday this stupid thing was down. eh i forgot what i want to say. but its alright. i could always talk about something else. hmmm i've competition on saturday, reaching my peak already, but dont really know if i'm like prepared for this competition. oh well. i guess i dont really like working with too much pressure. because it seriously sucks not being able to reach other's expectations. alright shall not think too much about it. hahas guess what. GAYLE rocks. she's cute. omgosh wished i was nineteen.

HINYANG
Gayle

- penned this at 9:52 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

okay so now our tagboard has become a personal message board for canoeists. haha.
nah i dont mind one bit. just stating it lahh. quite amusing what. anyway this blog has
been dead for about a week now. i guess everyone's busy with their own stuffs. yeah
it has been a hectic week thank you. o level mother tongue orals, trainings, annual parade
and national day concert practices. we're beat alright and school is not helping either. homeworksand pts (ubds) are something we wish to avoid. haha.

physics ubd! -looks at hinyang!- i wanted to break the table alright when he said
that! hahaha. abit waste of time lah. till 2am in the morning. tsk.

on a lighter note, wait is there even a lighter note issue? ohh yeah. racial harmony day!
ALL josephians are supposed to cross-cultural dress. haha. that will be an interesting
day and i cant really imagine that scene though. oh well i think its gonna be a fun day.
finally a break from the normal hectic schedule. yes ah! haha. oh traditional food will be
sold on that day too. (:

"an excuse is a guarded lie." how true, dont you think? haha. guess where i found it?
well you'd never guess actually. its the last place you expect it to be. the school diary.
no i dont study the diary, maybe i just pay attention to this small details. either way
its a good quote.

i've been thinking,

why is a facade being put? when actually in reality, its the total opposite. nahh i think
letting nature takes its course is the best way in this case. eh dont mind me. i'm just
rambling things which will make no sense to you. at least i think so. haha.

hrmm. is there anything else i wish to address here?

mood swings? ups & downs? academic expectations? commitments? oh heck it. i'm a
happy person overall. okay that wasnt self-delusional okay. i'm happy overall. haha.
although there are several blotches here and there.


goodnight all,
fir.

- penned this at 9:38 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

hello! we won yesterday!! haha. annual inter-unit 11-a-side soccer. we won! yay sji ncc land! haha. we and our orange jerseys. haha. we played a 4-1-3-2 formation. i played tt 1, which is kinda of a new role for me. i usually play as one for the 2, the strikers. but being a defensive midfielder was a totally new challenge lahh. and wat a way to start of tt new challenge by missing a penalty in the first game. HAHA! pathetic rite! BUT, we still went on to win tt game 2-0 against npcc.

then 2nd game against sjab was an easy game and we ran out 3-0 winners, and in process topping our group and progressing to the semi finals. that game kinda brought me into the mood i guess. semi finals was against band. they were considered one of the best sides. they were damn gd lahh. but our defense played damn well and our keeper, thiaghu, made some exceptional saves. game finished 0-0 and went into penalties. i decided to be keeper. 3 kicks per team. i saved all the peanties, but so did the band keeper. then into sudden death penaties, i saved the decisive penalty to put us in the finals. the finals was once again against npcc. we ran out 1-0 winners to win the tournament. damn happy. we rawk. hahas

kesa

- penned this at 4:02 PM

Thursday, July 06, 2006

i guess a patient wont be of any help to another patient when he cant even possibly help himself stay positive. everything around me seems to be really screwed up,which is also why i dont really care about making it turn good again.

picture this.

amongst all that off season trainings, the shifting of focus from canoeing to probably studies and the social aspect, then suddenly, coach tells you know that there's a competition on the 21st and takes it that you want to be taking part. sure why not, i mean, we can always take part in another competition. but hello? not when you only let us 15days to the competition. you probably are still 20plus days from reaching your peak. what the hell is the freaking point of someone acutally taking part in a competition, when you know at your peak, you have a fighting chance of winning, which makes off peak even slimmer. who likes to play a losing match, or run a losing race?

that's besides the point. today at training. we capsized. yupp you didnt heard wrongly, we capsized. when we arent supposed to. and guess what. coach got really pissed with us he scolded us and threatened to not let us use that boat. its not a big deal. i dont mind not using it. but hey he thought we're playing and were making lame excuses. whatever coach. i'm starting to find canoeing meaningless. i mean you work so hard for something and you're bound to bump into something along the way. no matter what. and all the bad things just seem to be happening to me alone. everyone else is like enjoying it and stuff. sighs.

well just when you think things simply cant get worse. it just did. besides the canoeing aspect that's depressing, the social part is too. wow so what if i've oh-so-many friends? i hardly even spend anytime with them doing the things we like. i dont get that luxury. and yes, my friends might seem alot. but guess what. when everyone thinks that way, everyone thinks that there'll always be someone for me to talk to. truth is, there isnt. well i guess its just something i have been trying to get used to after stepping into sji in sec1. the many interrelations. let me just map out some.
mg-ac
hci-ny
ri-rgs
and now, we've a new addition to the family.
hci-rgs.
guess where i figured out sji should be?
sji- a hill full of tombs.
yupp, you might not believe what i'm about to say. but, no one otherside sji, cares about sji. just ponder over it before you start objecting. and if you're objecting, shows two things. either you're an awesome socialite who has the whole school next door talking about you upon your entry, or you just cant wake up to reality or are too busy to actually check the dictionary on what the word friends mean. why dont you try and go make a survey? go survey how many percent of the girl's school's girls are attached or are previously attached to sji guys. i shall be nice alright. 10%? ya dont judge a book by its cover, or a person by his school/looks. i so believe you.

and i wonder who came out with look at the bright side of things. i just wonder if there's equal distribution of positive things. but i have to agree that life is full of ups and downs. just that some people experience all the ups, while the rest experience all the down.

hmm i guess that's just me feeling down. i guess ups always seem very little. after all, happy times pass faster and that's why we see it as lesser. and the down times, are normally more horrible and a torture. so ya. nothing i can do to cheer anyone up now. for i know nothing can cheer me up now, so i guess, let nature take its course.

hinyang.

- penned this at 9:45 PM

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

i think i'm just gonna crack.

anytime.

wanna know why?

cos i cant take the pressure lorh!

well not that i cant take the pressure or stress at all but at times, i can just snap
and lose control of myself. that is a HUGE flaw on my part alright and i hate it
when i look down on myself and not believe that i really can do it.

i look at the 'suicide' note someone gave me and hey now i know how it really feels.
duhh that person didnt commit suicide. he's still well and alive. i hate it when i'm
weak. i just hate it alright and i dont think i make ANY sense right now. i'm just typing
what comes into my effing mind get it? so if you dont like it then just leave this blog.
no one's asking you to read right?

anyway. i dunno whats wrong with me but heck i will remain calm and not crack.

i will not crack.
i will not crack.
i will not crack.

of course, i'll not. heh. who am i kiding? myself lah. DUH! yes richard! i am dumb
and stupid for your own sake! sheesh. whatever lah and mr tang isnt HOT. sheesh.
bad taste uh.

lalala!

i'm normal. (:

- penned this at 10:14 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

alright. i guess i havent been online for sometime. been really busy. let's see. friday evening there was training, then there was kindred's at night. so it was practically lunch during the interval. that wasnt really a tiring day.

okay then came day two, saturday. i went fishing with alastair and john paul at east coast. which got us like 90% cooked. there wasnt many fishes caught, though without its fun. just feels really fun.

then sunday there was milk run. i ran and helped alastair's shop after the run. was really fun.

today i had training too.

bleh dont feel like going to school tomorrow.

anyways brazil's lousy.

- penned this at 7:18 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Ten+X Thoughts

(1) I just felt like updating this blog.
(2) I dont think its an obligation.
(3) Just felt that it should be kept alive.
(4) This is going to be very random.
(5) Why are people not replying my smses?
(6) Why must my handphone charger be faulty?
(7) Why must there be undercurrents amidst all these?
(8) MILK run is somehow lame.
(9) World Cup has so much drama.
(10) I love you.
(11) I miss you.
(12) I like your smile.
(13) School is getting stupid.
(14) I wanna move to the front of class.
(15) But me and yong quan keep forgetting to ask ms ong.
(16) Dikir is gonna be fun.
(17) Woah i do think of lots of things.
(18) Maybe i should stop.
(19) Heck i've started a monologue.
(20) I should continue this in my own blog.
(21) Someone else should update this blog.
(22) Find the value of X.

i miss those times when we were close. haha. Klose will win it for Germany!
(now that England is gone) byebye.

- penned this at 12:06 PM