i think i'm just gonna crack.

anytime.

wanna know why?

cos i cant take the pressure lorh!

well not that i cant take the pressure or stress at all but at times, i can just snap
and lose control of myself. that is a HUGE flaw on my part alright and i hate it
when i look down on myself and not believe that i really can do it.

i look at the 'suicide' note someone gave me and hey now i know how it really feels.
duhh that person didnt commit suicide. he's still well and alive. i hate it when i'm
weak. i just hate it alright and i dont think i make ANY sense right now. i'm just typing
what comes into my effing mind get it? so if you dont like it then just leave this blog.
no one's asking you to read right?

anyway. i dunno whats wrong with me but heck i will remain calm and not crack.

i will not crack.
i will not crack.
i will not crack.

of course, i'll not. heh. who am i kiding? myself lah. DUH! yes richard! i am dumb
and stupid for your own sake! sheesh. whatever lah and mr tang isnt HOT. sheesh.
bad taste uh.

lalala!

i'm normal. (: