to lose you.


that night i cried till i couldn't breathei couldn't open my eyesi couldn't get out of bedbut i couldn't sleepwhen i finally did, it didn't lasti'd dreamthen wakeand dreamthen wakei was never hungrybut i ate junk anywayi couldn't do anythingi didn't want to see anyonedrew the curtains because i didn't even want to see the suneverything made me cryeverythingeverything reminded me of youit felt so awful i couldn't think of any word that could sufficiently describe that feelingshort of the word 'death'


it was horrible.the day you left me.
because i loved you, you know?
i'm scared.i'm so scared.i'm so scared the anticipation of the hurt already makes me cry.i won't be able to take it you know.

i can't.