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Wednesday, August 29, 2007
so when it gonna end? is all this just nothing more then a photograph, a memory of the past? =/
kesa...
Monday, July 23, 2007
'UPDATE!', said a small voice at the back of my head. So here I am. Its been such a long long time since I've been here. I don't think the other two have either. Oh well.
Poor old blog. Anyway. Lets liven it up!
Alot of things have been happening in school. Some things which just irritates the hell out of you and some other things which forces that smile on your lips. With only 13 more weeks left, I'm going to treasure every moment left in school. Be it playing touch rugby during PE or sitting at the PAC for some talk or simply a meal at the canteen table. I'm gonna cherish every moment that is left. I don't want to leave it yet but.. ah well. Time waits for no man?
13 more weeks.
And oh currently working on this special project. I should really give it some thought. Haha. I love it actually. So there you go another update from yours truly,
iqbalfirdaus
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
happy birthday hin yang (:
Saturday, June 16, 2007
this place was starting to feel abit dead so maybe an update would freshen it up abit.
well, i've updated.
kesaK7ven
well, i've updated.
kesaK7ven
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
sigh. maybe i'm not ready..
Labels: fir
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
to lose you.
that night i cried till i couldn't breathei couldn't open my eyesi couldn't get out of bedbut i couldn't sleepwhen i finally did, it didn't lasti'd dreamthen wakeand dreamthen wakei was never hungrybut i ate junk anywayi couldn't do anythingi didn't want to see anyonedrew the curtains because i didn't even want to see the suneverything made me cryeverythingeverything reminded me of youit felt so awful i couldn't think of any word that could sufficiently describe that feelingshort of the word 'death'
it was horrible.the day you left me.
because i loved you, you know?
i'm scared.i'm so scared.i'm so scared the anticipation of the hurt already makes me cry.i won't be able to take it you know.
i can't.
that night i cried till i couldn't breathei couldn't open my eyesi couldn't get out of bedbut i couldn't sleepwhen i finally did, it didn't lasti'd dreamthen wakeand dreamthen wakei was never hungrybut i ate junk anywayi couldn't do anythingi didn't want to see anyonedrew the curtains because i didn't even want to see the suneverything made me cryeverythingeverything reminded me of youit felt so awful i couldn't think of any word that could sufficiently describe that feelingshort of the word 'death'
it was horrible.the day you left me.
because i loved you, you know?
i'm scared.i'm so scared.i'm so scared the anticipation of the hurt already makes me cry.i won't be able to take it you know.
i can't.
Friday, March 16, 2007
hellooooo! (: im blogging! haha. and like omg lahh. iv been quoted! "atleast this blog is still standing" -kesaven. haha, i feel so honoured. lolz. words of a wise man. haha, who said tt all the wise dudes had to hv long white beards and wrinkled faces. lolz, ok this post is just crap.
kesaK7ven
kesaK7ven
Thursday, March 15, 2007
hrm. i'm bored so i'm blogging for the sake of keeping this blog ALIVE!
'atleast this blog is still standing' - kesavan
haha. funny. cos i think we all should be given an award for keeping this blog 'still standing' and keeping it updated once in awhile. well why i say so is because even the moon people haven't updated theirs in like ten thousand years? lol.
okay signing off now (:
'atleast this blog is still standing' - kesavan
haha. funny. cos i think we all should be given an award for keeping this blog 'still standing' and keeping it updated once in awhile. well why i say so is because even the moon people haven't updated theirs in like ten thousand years? lol.
okay signing off now (:
Labels: fir
Sunday, February 25, 2007
haha, hin yang. u wanted me to write tt wat. ur wish is my command. haha, lolz. and u better not start using my name. see, i blogged! im such a good boy right. haha. later u use my name others will think my english suddenly pro already, writing complicated stuff. (is complicated spelt correctly? >.<) haha. AND, since when were u a historian?! haha, "united we stand, tired we sit" i like tt. im gonna go try tt on feroz, see wat she says. haha. and ur triple H! horrible historian hin yang. haha, ok random. iv run out of things to say again, so buh bye (:
history is weird
k7
history is weird
k7
hilarious history
alright i just thought of this relatively random stuff. as we all studied about the welfare state in our wonderful social studies lessons from our interesting teachers, we learn that when the welfare state was introduced, before leading to abuse, everything seemed very idealistic right. so at that time before the introduction of the welfare state, the government wanted support for the welfare state, so they thought of coming up with a slogan to actually get the general public talking about the welfare state. and after much discussion, they came up with a slogan. " united, we stand " the reason why they came up with that slogan was because they want the general population to stand together, supporting one another along the way, in simple terms, it is the strong helping the weak to stand on their own feets. a long message behind a short slogan indeed. however, when the welfare state came into practise, it was shown to be a failure, yesyes we all know why it was a failure so i shall not take over the role of your social studies teacher. and when the welfare state was proven to be a failure, the government faced much opposition. the british wanted to do away with the welfare state. and so the opposition party thought this will be a good chance, to rub salt into the wound that cannot be treated by the welfare state. in one of their rallies, the opposition added a few wise words to the slogan the government came up with to praise the welfare state. and it worked! are you wondering what the new slogan was? it goes " united we stand " , yes that's the exact same slogan, but wait, they added " tired we sit " behind. indeed, that was the situation in great britain. after helping each other get on their feet, they realised that they needn't work so hard since the government can take care of their needs. so they all sat down and wait for the government(:
history is so fun.
horrible historian hinyang
alright i just thought of this relatively random stuff. as we all studied about the welfare state in our wonderful social studies lessons from our interesting teachers, we learn that when the welfare state was introduced, before leading to abuse, everything seemed very idealistic right. so at that time before the introduction of the welfare state, the government wanted support for the welfare state, so they thought of coming up with a slogan to actually get the general public talking about the welfare state. and after much discussion, they came up with a slogan. " united, we stand " the reason why they came up with that slogan was because they want the general population to stand together, supporting one another along the way, in simple terms, it is the strong helping the weak to stand on their own feets. a long message behind a short slogan indeed. however, when the welfare state came into practise, it was shown to be a failure, yesyes we all know why it was a failure so i shall not take over the role of your social studies teacher. and when the welfare state was proven to be a failure, the government faced much opposition. the british wanted to do away with the welfare state. and so the opposition party thought this will be a good chance, to rub salt into the wound that cannot be treated by the welfare state. in one of their rallies, the opposition added a few wise words to the slogan the government came up with to praise the welfare state. and it worked! are you wondering what the new slogan was? it goes " united we stand " , yes that's the exact same slogan, but wait, they added " tired we sit " behind. indeed, that was the situation in great britain. after helping each other get on their feet, they realised that they needn't work so hard since the government can take care of their needs. so they all sat down and wait for the government(:
history is so fun.
horrible historian hinyang
Saturday, February 24, 2007
hahas stupid boy. i didnt know you really said that la. wth. but its so funny! the way you put it. hmm k7, you better be posting more often or i'll post more stupid post under your name. not that i've done, but you won't want me to start. lol.
hinyang.
hinyang.
hello. i am k7. i forgot how to log in into blogger so i din't post. haha, no lahh. hin yang wanted me to write tt. so hello ppl and blog! it been like ages sinces i blogged here. so sad right. alot of things have happened. ppl say time is the cure, but not always it seems. but, everyone is still happy, i think. atleast this blog is still standing. i dunno wat else to say. so takkaire all. till i next blog here again, which i promise won't be so long.
kesaK7ven
kesaK7ven
Sunday, February 18, 2007
Happy Chinese New Year y'all. (:
Labels: fir
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
omgosh i cant stand her anymore. she's so freaking irritating. i cant stand her arrogance for a start, not to mention the way she treats me! she comes out with all kinds of stuff and when trouble comes knocking on her door, she gladly passes the baton of blame to someone else. how selfish can a girl be! she's forever living in her glory days, only to compare herself with others when she outshines everyone else. there are many things in life in which i dont understand, one of which is how she actually gets into the good books of the teachers! are the teachers at stc blind or something? i cant believe she can actually breech rules in front of the teachers! oh wells, i just hope she doesnt remain like this forever, i pity jeanette for having sucha classmate.
Monday, January 29, 2007
Hellooo. The purpose of this entry is just to tell the other two co-owners of this blog of the certain changes that have been made to the account. One. We can no longer log in using the old blogger. We are using the Google account now. Two. The username has been changed to my email add. I tried not to change it but they say.. oh well. Three. The password still remains though.
Thank you!
fir
Thank you!
fir
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
absence makes the hearts closer. that's bullshit.
according the chinese literature which we learnt during class today (probably the only thing i heard) is that when you keep thinking of someone, no matter what you do, it'll always end up thinking of that person.
which reminds me of many occasions in which it ended like that.
its like really hard to be forgetting someone, so i'm not intending forget.
i just reallyreally hope to hear from you someday. i'll wait.
according the chinese literature which we learnt during class today (probably the only thing i heard) is that when you keep thinking of someone, no matter what you do, it'll always end up thinking of that person.
which reminds me of many occasions in which it ended like that.
its like really hard to be forgetting someone, so i'm not intending forget.
i just reallyreally hope to hear from you someday. i'll wait.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
you said...
you said we could be friends,
but you didnt say anything to me after that.
you said you'd many friends to talk to,
but aint i your friend?
all that and more you said.
i just wished, you'll say more.
you said we could be friends,
but you didnt say anything to me after that.
you said you'd many friends to talk to,
but aint i your friend?
all that and more you said.
i just wished, you'll say more.
Monday, January 01, 2007
all i have to say is.
be happy without me.
HAPPY NEW YEAR. (:
be happy without me.
HAPPY NEW YEAR. (:
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Candy Cane Heart '06 (;Saturday, December 23, 2006
The All-American Rejects
It Ends Tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such distain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
i dont want it to be ending tonight.
its just happening too quickly for my to accept everything at once.
and as i look back at the past, to see the difference you've made,
i see how irreplacable you are.
i dont really know what's going on.
but we're drifting apart because you're excluding me for your life.
must cold wars always lead to seperation?
It Ends Tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such distain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight, Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
i dont want it to be ending tonight.
its just happening too quickly for my to accept everything at once.
and as i look back at the past, to see the difference you've made,
i see how irreplacable you are.
i dont really know what's going on.
but we're drifting apart because you're excluding me for your life.
must cold wars always lead to seperation?
Friday, December 15, 2006
Okay I haven't been here for ages man. I suddenly felt the urge to blog here to share an
amusing conversation I had with you all. Well it goes like this,
A : Alright let me tell you a story. Once there was this tsui mai and a pau. They lived in a box.
You know how the pau is bigger so it always bully the tsui mai. Then one day the pau said
'EH you better get out of this box or I'll throw you into the river!'
B : Uhh okay.
A : Then the tsui mai left. TEN years later the tsui mai came back. He looked around and the
pau was no where to be seen. So he went inside. Suddenly the pau appeared, 'Haha! I was
hiding in the corner. Now I have to throw you into the river.' And so he did. End of story.
B : Ummm?
A : So how do you fit an elephant into the fridge?
B : You open the door and stuff it in?
A : Okay. So how do you put a giraffe in?
B : Take the elephant out and stuff the giraffe in!
A : Clever boy. One day tarzan decided to call all the animals for a meeting. Who wasn't there?
B : Giraffe.
A : Alright. Say you are stuck on one side of the river full of crocodiles. How do you go about in crossing it?
B : You hop on their backs?
A : Haha no. You can just swim. The crocodiles will be at the meeting.
B : ....
A : So when you got to the other side, you got hungry. You decided to fish. What will you catch?
B : I dunno.
A : The TSUI MAI! Haha!
good day!
fir.
amusing conversation I had with you all. Well it goes like this,
A : Alright let me tell you a story. Once there was this tsui mai and a pau. They lived in a box.
You know how the pau is bigger so it always bully the tsui mai. Then one day the pau said
'EH you better get out of this box or I'll throw you into the river!'
B : Uhh okay.
A : Then the tsui mai left. TEN years later the tsui mai came back. He looked around and the
pau was no where to be seen. So he went inside. Suddenly the pau appeared, 'Haha! I was
hiding in the corner. Now I have to throw you into the river.' And so he did. End of story.
B : Ummm?
A : So how do you fit an elephant into the fridge?
B : You open the door and stuff it in?
A : Okay. So how do you put a giraffe in?
B : Take the elephant out and stuff the giraffe in!
A : Clever boy. One day tarzan decided to call all the animals for a meeting. Who wasn't there?
B : Giraffe.
A : Alright. Say you are stuck on one side of the river full of crocodiles. How do you go about in crossing it?
B : You hop on their backs?
A : Haha no. You can just swim. The crocodiles will be at the meeting.
B : ....
A : So when you got to the other side, you got hungry. You decided to fish. What will you catch?
B : I dunno.
A : The TSUI MAI! Haha!
good day!
fir.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
There was a blind boy who used to hate everyone.
except his girlfriend.
he always used to say that i'll marry you if i could see.
suddenly one day someone donated the eyes.
when he saw his girl friend he was astonished to see that she was also BLIND.
his girl friend then asked will you marry me NOW?
surprisingly.
he simply refused.
his girl friend took her own life after writing a letter saying:
" just take good care of MY eyes "
love means sacrifice.
aw sucha sad story.
except his girlfriend.
he always used to say that i'll marry you if i could see.
suddenly one day someone donated the eyes.
when he saw his girl friend he was astonished to see that she was also BLIND.
his girl friend then asked will you marry me NOW?
surprisingly.
he simply refused.
his girl friend took her own life after writing a letter saying:
" just take good care of MY eyes "
love means sacrifice.
aw sucha sad story.
i find this picture quite amusing. well maybe one day i'll play the she loves me game ;)
your favourite word..show me that dreams do come true
Thursday, November 09, 2006
recently, i was talking to my mother. and we chanced upon this issue which i thought was quite interesting how the two generations actually differed in thinkings.
so the background story goes like this. i have an uncle. (yes almost everyone has one too) okay he isnt one of those reallyreally well paid prestigious jobs which you wear a tux to work everyday. during the holidays, he'll be the santa clause who delivers the textbooks to the various schools. (trust me, its not an easy job, i tried)
and so, what we were talking about, was him having problems maintaining his bmw. 5series. that simple. him saving up on everything only to sepnd it on maintaining his bmw.
so i went: well maybe its his passion, like he can spend all his childhood dreaming about owning a bmw, so when his dreams came through, definitely he'll do anything to keep his bmw. its like if you aspire to be a world number one, you'll do anything to become one.
she went: but if your means doesnt allow, then you shouldn't spend so much on a bmw. you have to be realistic. (she said more, just that i was too much on my side i didnt really listen to what she said) and she brought in my dad. she continued: your dad could've bought a honda, its his dream car, but he doesnt want that burden.
its either i havent saved/earned my first 10k or we just look for different things in life. i mean, life's short(okay this sounds like a newspaper article reflection i read in preparation for express chinese o's) and everyone has dream. he's a grown man, i'm sure he has worked hard enough in his lifetime to actually pamper himself as he closes retirement right? his kids are like in university now.
they can just get their degree and like support him? why cant he just keep his bmw. i know its hard for him to keep his bmw now, but how are you going to stop the power of one's will. yes he might work really hard now, but i think if i were him, after a hard day of work, when i finally take time off to take my bmw for a ride or like get some wind in my hair, its all worth it. so like yea.
so the background story goes like this. i have an uncle. (yes almost everyone has one too) okay he isnt one of those reallyreally well paid prestigious jobs which you wear a tux to work everyday. during the holidays, he'll be the santa clause who delivers the textbooks to the various schools. (trust me, its not an easy job, i tried)
and so, what we were talking about, was him having problems maintaining his bmw. 5series. that simple. him saving up on everything only to sepnd it on maintaining his bmw.
so i went: well maybe its his passion, like he can spend all his childhood dreaming about owning a bmw, so when his dreams came through, definitely he'll do anything to keep his bmw. its like if you aspire to be a world number one, you'll do anything to become one.
she went: but if your means doesnt allow, then you shouldn't spend so much on a bmw. you have to be realistic. (she said more, just that i was too much on my side i didnt really listen to what she said) and she brought in my dad. she continued: your dad could've bought a honda, its his dream car, but he doesnt want that burden.
its either i havent saved/earned my first 10k or we just look for different things in life. i mean, life's short(okay this sounds like a newspaper article reflection i read in preparation for express chinese o's) and everyone has dream. he's a grown man, i'm sure he has worked hard enough in his lifetime to actually pamper himself as he closes retirement right? his kids are like in university now.
they can just get their degree and like support him? why cant he just keep his bmw. i know its hard for him to keep his bmw now, but how are you going to stop the power of one's will. yes he might work really hard now, but i think if i were him, after a hard day of work, when i finally take time off to take my bmw for a ride or like get some wind in my hair, its all worth it. so like yea.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
This isn't goodbye, even as I watch you leave, this isn't goodbyeI swear I won't cry, even as tears fill my eyes, I swear I won't cry
Any other girl, I'd let you walk away
Any other girl, I'm sure I'd be ok
Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So I can get over you
What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life
When you apologize, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home
Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So that I can get over you
Other girls will come along, they always do
But what's the point when all I ever want is you, tell me
Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know..... (let me know)
Girl you gotta let me know..... (wooo)
So I can get over you
my exact emotions. though i dont want to get over you just yet.
hinyang
Okayy so like ace camp is like over and that means sabah trip is like nearer. And like oh my
gaaawd, something is like nearer too but like its not important. And like why am i talking like
paris hilton?! Like ewww.
HEH!
Well basically oh faithful readers the reason why I did that was because its 2+ in the morning
and guess what? I'm still awake. Its a duh thing right or else why am I here typing out this
post. Anyway yeah ACE camp is over. Its been alot of fun. MOG rocks. The most well-
behaved and trouble-free group. Thank you for all the fun to those who are involved and made
the camp a successful one. Especially the ACE leaders. You guys rock (: Too bad Kesavan
didn't submit the form. He missed out alot lahh. Lol.
Now I wanna shout out things which will only make sense to me but decipher it if you want.
The doorknob is irritating me like crazy. Tsk. But its alright. Syrup is nice but somehow people criticised it. -shrugs. My shinguard is gonna crack and break again. Ah well. Not that I didn't take care of it lah. It gave way quite a couple of times too. Sigh. Change is nicer and better now.
& I love candles.
Enough random things for now. I still don't get some things you know. For example, why
we, humans, are so capable of deception, painting false pictures and twisting the truth.
Or our judgement of something can be made so quickly without having to think any deeper.
I can't lay my finger on these matters really. Ah well. I still love life no doubt and I will
constantly remember to live it to the fullest everyday. (:
Good morning folks.
gaaawd, something is like nearer too but like its not important. And like why am i talking like
paris hilton?! Like ewww.
HEH!
Well basically oh faithful readers the reason why I did that was because its 2+ in the morning
and guess what? I'm still awake. Its a duh thing right or else why am I here typing out this
post. Anyway yeah ACE camp is over. Its been alot of fun. MOG rocks. The most well-
behaved and trouble-free group. Thank you for all the fun to those who are involved and made
the camp a successful one. Especially the ACE leaders. You guys rock (: Too bad Kesavan
didn't submit the form. He missed out alot lahh. Lol.
Now I wanna shout out things which will only make sense to me but decipher it if you want.
The doorknob is irritating me like crazy. Tsk. But its alright. Syrup is nice but somehow people criticised it. -shrugs. My shinguard is gonna crack and break again. Ah well. Not that I didn't take care of it lah. It gave way quite a couple of times too. Sigh. Change is nicer and better now.
& I love candles.
Enough random things for now. I still don't get some things you know. For example, why
we, humans, are so capable of deception, painting false pictures and twisting the truth.
Or our judgement of something can be made so quickly without having to think any deeper.
I can't lay my finger on these matters really. Ah well. I still love life no doubt and I will
constantly remember to live it to the fullest everyday. (:
Good morning folks.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
ENGLISH ; i love you
POLISH ; ja kocham cibie
FRENCH ; je t'aime
HINDI ; hum tumhe pyar karte hae
CZECH ; miluji te
SLOVAKIAN ; lu'bim ta
ITALIAN ; ti amo
UKRAINIAN ; ya tebe kahayu
GERMAN ; ish libe dish
CHINESE ; wo ai ni
GREEK ; s' agapo
HAWAIAN ; aloha wau ia oi
LITHUIANIAN ; tav myliu
KOREAN ; sa rang hae yo
JAPENESE ; aishiteru
ROMANIAN ; te ubsec
BOSNIAN ; volim te
ALBANIAN ; te dua
FILIPINO ; mahal kita
SPANISH ; te amo
PORTUGESE ; amo te
ARABIAN ; annah be hebic
22 different ways of expressing love. lol.
POLISH ; ja kocham cibie
FRENCH ; je t'aime
HINDI ; hum tumhe pyar karte hae
CZECH ; miluji te
SLOVAKIAN ; lu'bim ta
ITALIAN ; ti amo
UKRAINIAN ; ya tebe kahayu
GERMAN ; ish libe dish
CHINESE ; wo ai ni
GREEK ; s' agapo
HAWAIAN ; aloha wau ia oi
LITHUIANIAN ; tav myliu
KOREAN ; sa rang hae yo
JAPENESE ; aishiteru
ROMANIAN ; te ubsec
BOSNIAN ; volim te
ALBANIAN ; te dua
FILIPINO ; mahal kita
SPANISH ; te amo
PORTUGESE ; amo te
ARABIAN ; annah be hebic
22 different ways of expressing love. lol.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Exam results? Hrmmm. Oh yah. They stank! Bad. The saying goes, 'It is the process and not
the results that matters' or something along that line but being the normal human hypocrites
that we all are, we tend to look only at the end product. If it is of low quality then it'd be said
that not enough effort was being put in and we have been spending too much time (emphasising on "too much") on other superficialities like smsing, IMing, going out etc etc etc.
To certain extent, yes, as a person who has a life, I do those stuffs but I did them in moderation. I tried my level best to juggle and balance all my commitments and even ended up dropping a few vases along the way. See? I did put in effort. I really did. But I guess they want more. Ah
well. Lets move along like we always do and continue life. And strive for the better.
Anyway I think I'm a really horrible person. Only three days after Ramadhan and I started to bitch already. This is not good. It is never good. Nyeh. Is there such thing as you bitch for
good? Okay I'm crapping already. I shall end soon.
Oh and a random word to end it.
SHIN GUARD!
fir! (:
the results that matters' or something along that line but being the normal human hypocrites
that we all are, we tend to look only at the end product. If it is of low quality then it'd be said
that not enough effort was being put in and we have been spending too much time (emphasising on "too much") on other superficialities like smsing, IMing, going out etc etc etc.
To certain extent, yes, as a person who has a life, I do those stuffs but I did them in moderation. I tried my level best to juggle and balance all my commitments and even ended up dropping a few vases along the way. See? I did put in effort. I really did. But I guess they want more. Ah
well. Lets move along like we always do and continue life. And strive for the better.
Anyway I think I'm a really horrible person. Only three days after Ramadhan and I started to bitch already. This is not good. It is never good. Nyeh. Is there such thing as you bitch for
good? Okay I'm crapping already. I shall end soon.
Oh and a random word to end it.
SHIN GUARD!
fir! (:
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Liberation! white, blue, green? colours of freedom filled orchard today. we were like such bitches. its just so hilarious how we spent our times at orchard. ohya did vinoth cut his hair,anyone. cyq, did he? lol i dont wanna see tomorrow. tomorrow! school's going to end at like 10. though i think orchard wont be the ideal place for dating. *coughs* hahas the person who's dating tomorrow knows. alright have fun. ohya people. GET A LIFE.
yang
yang
Sunday, October 01, 2006
-trumpet fanfare!-
And here I am blogging to revive and dust the spiderwebs off this blog. (:
Okay lets inform everyone what has kept us busy. We've been mugging or at least
I know I am. Hur but really the three of us have been mugging. Hence the decrease
of updates recently. Simple as that, no? Haha.
Well as much as I want to update the both of you of what that has been going through in
my life in this blog, I can't. There are just too much and some of them are really too private
to be enclosed in this open-to-public blog. Heck I don't even have any opportunities to talk
to either of you. Or anyone for that fact. I feel lost and drowned and lonely. So many things
have happened and how I wish I could tell you all of them but I can't for some reason.
Fuck I don't think I even made sense in whatever crap I typed up there.
Ugh whatever me lah alright?
fir
And here I am blogging to revive and dust the spiderwebs off this blog. (:
Okay lets inform everyone what has kept us busy. We've been mugging or at least
I know I am. Hur but really the three of us have been mugging. Hence the decrease
of updates recently. Simple as that, no? Haha.
Well as much as I want to update the both of you of what that has been going through in
my life in this blog, I can't. There are just too much and some of them are really too private
to be enclosed in this open-to-public blog. Heck I don't even have any opportunities to talk
to either of you. Or anyone for that fact. I feel lost and drowned and lonely. So many things
have happened and how I wish I could tell you all of them but I can't for some reason.
Fuck I don't think I even made sense in whatever crap I typed up there.
Ugh whatever me lah alright?
fir
Saturday, September 23, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOG!! =D
its a whole year already.......
k7
its a whole year already.......
k7
Thursday, September 21, 2006
school's just so hilarious. from the raining day pranks we play on teachers, to the daily jokes made from powerful scientific engrish. then there's the jokers making stupid jokes out of anything. :) at least there arent as many problems bothering me now. hmm just have to take my mind off some canoeing stuff. alright, back to mtv music awards! (:
hinyang.
as promised. (:
hinyang.
as promised. (:
Monday, September 18, 2006
Red Curtains
let us sing, to celebrate the love.
oh don't you see?
we all worship you,
with flowers and white doves.
here we stand,
we claim of sisterhood with our voices.
do we pretend?
or do you just mistake me behind a black mask;
where we dance to the tune of my death?
no, you don't see me,
these aren't tears upon my cheeks.
we'll still sing,
yes, we sing;
im just lying in between oh,
so invisible yet tis so deceivable.
who are you now?
we'll still dance, voice and act.
fairies of the arts.
they love you, and gaze on.
no need to overeact, you're different
behind the costumes you don, fairies of the arts.
we love what we do.
such love, flows from you to you.
we all wear this costume, such love, among us all.
we dance to the same tune,
yet inside, we stumble and fall.
red curtains draw.
who are you now?
koped this from one brilliant poet (:
Hrmm everyone is busy. Ah well. Like what's new right?
Fir.
let us sing, to celebrate the love.
oh don't you see?
we all worship you,
with flowers and white doves.
here we stand,
we claim of sisterhood with our voices.
do we pretend?
or do you just mistake me behind a black mask;
where we dance to the tune of my death?
no, you don't see me,
these aren't tears upon my cheeks.
we'll still sing,
yes, we sing;
im just lying in between oh,
so invisible yet tis so deceivable.
who are you now?
we'll still dance, voice and act.
fairies of the arts.
they love you, and gaze on.
no need to overeact, you're different
behind the costumes you don, fairies of the arts.
we love what we do.
such love, flows from you to you.
we all wear this costume, such love, among us all.
we dance to the same tune,
yet inside, we stumble and fall.
red curtains draw.
who are you now?
koped this from one brilliant poet (:
Hrmm everyone is busy. Ah well. Like what's new right?
Fir.
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Woah. I just realised that this blog will be celebrating its birthday soon. 23rd September. That's quite fast huh? It seems like only yesterday that I found the trouble to search for a suitable blogskin. Haha. Cool. And so much have happened in that span of a year. Ah well.
Fir.
Fir.
Friday, September 01, 2006
YAY! The holidays are here, finally, but reality is always there to remind all of us that we're
not living in lalala land doesnt it? Cause the FYE is just around the corner. And that stinks.
Mugging sessions commences and from what I've heard, a number of people have started to mug and revise. Ahh unlike last year when we mugged to get a subject combi we wanted,
this year we are mugging just to get promoted. Sigh. Apparently failing any one of the
subjects or all of them is not a way to get promoted at all. So let the mugging season begins.
For those of you who are interested, our English paper is on the 27th of Sept and the rest
will begin on the 4th of October and officially ends on the 11th (well for me at least).
Typical Convo :
Person X - EH! Have you started studying for fye?
Me - Erhh. Not really.
Person X - Oh okay good. OR. You better cause others start studying already.
The Mugging Bug has got everybody huh? Ah well.
Good Morning to All.
FIR!
[ okay whats up with me and proper typing in the post i just did. heh. ah well. (: ]
not living in lalala land doesnt it? Cause the FYE is just around the corner. And that stinks.
Mugging sessions commences and from what I've heard, a number of people have started to mug and revise. Ahh unlike last year when we mugged to get a subject combi we wanted,
this year we are mugging just to get promoted. Sigh. Apparently failing any one of the
subjects or all of them is not a way to get promoted at all. So let the mugging season begins.
For those of you who are interested, our English paper is on the 27th of Sept and the rest
will begin on the 4th of October and officially ends on the 11th (well for me at least).
Typical Convo :
Person X - EH! Have you started studying for fye?
Me - Erhh. Not really.
Person X - Oh okay good. OR. You better cause others start studying already.
The Mugging Bug has got everybody huh? Ah well.
Good Morning to All.
FIR!
[ okay whats up with me and proper typing in the post i just did. heh. ah well. (: ]
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
blahblahblah. i dont know. i've alot to say. but i know i cant. because i doubt anyone understands. so yupp.
hinyang
hinyang
Monday, August 28, 2006
heh. i knew i was missed. haha. but seriously, u did not hv to announce like tt on ur affection. LOL. ahh... i wonder how many more are hiding their feelings. lol. im an egoistic ass. i know. >.< I KNEW YOU MISSED ME. =)
K7
K7
Saturday, August 26, 2006
I MISS KESAVAN WHEN HE WAS AWAY FROM OBS!
there you go casey! x)
fir.
Friday, August 25, 2006
yo ppl! back frm OBS!! bet ya'll missed me. LOL. was damn fun. somehow, i look blacker, (if tts even possible) and im in need of sleep man. full update on OBS soon. my bed awaits me. bye!
K7
K7
Thursday, August 24, 2006
hmm no one seems to be talking. k7's in some part of ubin. sounds really fun, beats being in school doing stupid things. not to mention the boredom that comes with it. well its back to training. and some issues that got everyone really worked up. and i'm like stuck in the middle. sometimes i wonder why people cant just be linked to each other within their groups. just the few of them, with no outside connection. or at least outside friendship or something. hmm i'm sounding like a communist. but whatever. life's just so crappy. eh whatever it is, just do what you're happy with. because i doubt i'll be interfering.
Friday, August 18, 2006
omgosh. now i've so many things that i want to buy. jantex paddle. macbook. mframe oakley sunglasses. bleh i doubt my parents allow.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
let the song speak by itself;
alright. this sucks. i can't concentrate on whatever i'm doing today. sigh. its like i don't know.
something is tugging me mentally. something, which i've regretted since term 2 and i felt it so strongly last night. eh i suddenly know what is wrong with me. i must really stop that. i'm irritated at myself, go figure.
but i'm still a happy person, no doubt.
and you; you can always turn to me if you are feeling blue you know. i'm still an option like how
i still consider you an option to turn to when i'm lost. seriously. its difficult for me as well to talk to you with all the many people around. gawsh. now i know how you felt. sigh. i'm sorry for last night and yeah candle did drop hints last night. guess there's no point in telling you all these now. only online/face-to-face will do.
goodbye then
themugger
Saturday, July 22, 2006
hahaha. what's up with the so many hellos dude? well as long you're happy and laughing.
i'm fine with it. anyway. yes, gayle is out of the competition although she totally doesnt
deserve the early exit. i would've booted out jasmine tye instead. bad hair, bad song.
well it was her worst night. i thought jay did well enough not to be in the bottom 3 cause
not all guys can pull off that daniel bedingfield song please. ahh wells. gayle nerva's out.
i just hope rahimah doesnt screw up next week. its jazz week i think.
yesterday was rhd. kinda fun. it was tiring too. plus 'twas a hot day. haha. mls ah? all i can
say is, quite alot of undercurrents going on. totally alright. sheesh.
rhd was love in the end. lol. (:
and apparently obs sabah (i mean IF i'm selected) would be on the 11th of November to the 23rd. anyone noticed anything? the group will be leaving on my birthday which is kinda
bleh. that date is like important, hello! but its okay, i guess. i'm cool with it, i think.
lol.
okay thats it for now. mugging awaits.
goodbye and good day!
fir
i'm fine with it. anyway. yes, gayle is out of the competition although she totally doesnt
deserve the early exit. i would've booted out jasmine tye instead. bad hair, bad song.
well it was her worst night. i thought jay did well enough not to be in the bottom 3 cause
not all guys can pull off that daniel bedingfield song please. ahh wells. gayle nerva's out.
i just hope rahimah doesnt screw up next week. its jazz week i think.
yesterday was rhd. kinda fun. it was tiring too. plus 'twas a hot day. haha. mls ah? all i can
say is, quite alot of undercurrents going on. totally alright. sheesh.
rhd was love in the end. lol. (:
and apparently obs sabah (i mean IF i'm selected) would be on the 11th of November to the 23rd. anyone noticed anything? the group will be leaving on my birthday which is kinda
bleh. that date is like important, hello! but its okay, i guess. i'm cool with it, i think.
lol.
okay thats it for now. mugging awaits.
goodbye and good day!
fir
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
hello hello hello. alright i shall stop my retarded hello-ing act just for now, until the end of the post. sorry people, have been really busy recently, alot of my friends should know, although i have been trying to keep a low profile about it. its the canoeing training alright. eh today was quite alright a day. i made quite alot of new friends in the team though its quite hard to. eh havent have the time to come online these few days, and yesterday this stupid thing was down. eh i forgot what i want to say. but its alright. i could always talk about something else. hmmm i've competition on saturday, reaching my peak already, but dont really know if i'm like prepared for this competition. oh well. i guess i dont really like working with too much pressure. because it seriously sucks not being able to reach other's expectations. alright shall not think too much about it. hahas guess what. GAYLE rocks. she's cute. omgosh wished i was nineteen.
HINYANG
Gayle
hello hello hello. alright i shall stop my retarded hello-ing act just for now, until the end of the post. sorry people, have been really busy recently, alot of my friends should know, although i have been trying to keep a low profile about it. its the canoeing training alright. eh today was quite alright a day. i made quite alot of new friends in the team though its quite hard to. eh havent have the time to come online these few days, and yesterday this stupid thing was down. eh i forgot what i want to say. but its alright. i could always talk about something else. hmmm i've competition on saturday, reaching my peak already, but dont really know if i'm like prepared for this competition. oh well. i guess i dont really like working with too much pressure. because it seriously sucks not being able to reach other's expectations. alright shall not think too much about it. hahas guess what. GAYLE rocks. she's cute. omgosh wished i was nineteen.
HINYANG
Gayle
Sunday, July 16, 2006
okay so now our tagboard has become a personal message board for canoeists. haha.
nah i dont mind one bit. just stating it lahh. quite amusing what. anyway this blog has
been dead for about a week now. i guess everyone's busy with their own stuffs. yeah
it has been a hectic week thank you. o level mother tongue orals, trainings, annual parade
and national day concert practices. we're beat alright and school is not helping either. homeworksand pts (ubds) are something we wish to avoid. haha.
physics ubd! -looks at hinyang!- i wanted to break the table alright when he said
that! hahaha. abit waste of time lah. till 2am in the morning. tsk.
on a lighter note, wait is there even a lighter note issue? ohh yeah. racial harmony day!
ALL josephians are supposed to cross-cultural dress. haha. that will be an interesting
day and i cant really imagine that scene though. oh well i think its gonna be a fun day.
finally a break from the normal hectic schedule. yes ah! haha. oh traditional food will be
sold on that day too. (:
"an excuse is a guarded lie." how true, dont you think? haha. guess where i found it?
well you'd never guess actually. its the last place you expect it to be. the school diary.
no i dont study the diary, maybe i just pay attention to this small details. either way
its a good quote.
i've been thinking,
why is a facade being put? when actually in reality, its the total opposite. nahh i think
letting nature takes its course is the best way in this case. eh dont mind me. i'm just
rambling things which will make no sense to you. at least i think so. haha.
hrmm. is there anything else i wish to address here?
mood swings? ups & downs? academic expectations? commitments? oh heck it. i'm a
happy person overall. okay that wasnt self-delusional okay. i'm happy overall. haha.
although there are several blotches here and there.
goodnight all,
fir.
nah i dont mind one bit. just stating it lahh. quite amusing what. anyway this blog has
been dead for about a week now. i guess everyone's busy with their own stuffs. yeah
it has been a hectic week thank you. o level mother tongue orals, trainings, annual parade
and national day concert practices. we're beat alright and school is not helping either. homeworksand pts (ubds) are something we wish to avoid. haha.
physics ubd! -looks at hinyang!- i wanted to break the table alright when he said
that! hahaha. abit waste of time lah. till 2am in the morning. tsk.
on a lighter note, wait is there even a lighter note issue? ohh yeah. racial harmony day!
ALL josephians are supposed to cross-cultural dress. haha. that will be an interesting
day and i cant really imagine that scene though. oh well i think its gonna be a fun day.
finally a break from the normal hectic schedule. yes ah! haha. oh traditional food will be
sold on that day too. (:
"an excuse is a guarded lie." how true, dont you think? haha. guess where i found it?
well you'd never guess actually. its the last place you expect it to be. the school diary.
no i dont study the diary, maybe i just pay attention to this small details. either way
its a good quote.
i've been thinking,
why is a facade being put? when actually in reality, its the total opposite. nahh i think
letting nature takes its course is the best way in this case. eh dont mind me. i'm just
rambling things which will make no sense to you. at least i think so. haha.
hrmm. is there anything else i wish to address here?
mood swings? ups & downs? academic expectations? commitments? oh heck it. i'm a
happy person overall. okay that wasnt self-delusional okay. i'm happy overall. haha.
although there are several blotches here and there.
goodnight all,
fir.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
hello! we won yesterday!! haha. annual inter-unit 11-a-side soccer. we won! yay sji ncc land! haha. we and our orange jerseys. haha. we played a 4-1-3-2 formation. i played tt 1, which is kinda of a new role for me. i usually play as one for the 2, the strikers. but being a defensive midfielder was a totally new challenge lahh. and wat a way to start of tt new challenge by missing a penalty in the first game. HAHA! pathetic rite! BUT, we still went on to win tt game 2-0 against npcc.
then 2nd game against sjab was an easy game and we ran out 3-0 winners, and in process topping our group and progressing to the semi finals. that game kinda brought me into the mood i guess. semi finals was against band. they were considered one of the best sides. they were damn gd lahh. but our defense played damn well and our keeper, thiaghu, made some exceptional saves. game finished 0-0 and went into penalties. i decided to be keeper. 3 kicks per team. i saved all the peanties, but so did the band keeper. then into sudden death penaties, i saved the decisive penalty to put us in the finals. the finals was once again against npcc. we ran out 1-0 winners to win the tournament. damn happy. we rawk. hahas
kesa
then 2nd game against sjab was an easy game and we ran out 3-0 winners, and in process topping our group and progressing to the semi finals. that game kinda brought me into the mood i guess. semi finals was against band. they were considered one of the best sides. they were damn gd lahh. but our defense played damn well and our keeper, thiaghu, made some exceptional saves. game finished 0-0 and went into penalties. i decided to be keeper. 3 kicks per team. i saved all the peanties, but so did the band keeper. then into sudden death penaties, i saved the decisive penalty to put us in the finals. the finals was once again against npcc. we ran out 1-0 winners to win the tournament. damn happy. we rawk. hahas
kesa
Thursday, July 06, 2006
i guess a patient wont be of any help to another patient when he cant even possibly help himself stay positive. everything around me seems to be really screwed up,which is also why i dont really care about making it turn good again.
picture this.
amongst all that off season trainings, the shifting of focus from canoeing to probably studies and the social aspect, then suddenly, coach tells you know that there's a competition on the 21st and takes it that you want to be taking part. sure why not, i mean, we can always take part in another competition. but hello? not when you only let us 15days to the competition. you probably are still 20plus days from reaching your peak. what the hell is the freaking point of someone acutally taking part in a competition, when you know at your peak, you have a fighting chance of winning, which makes off peak even slimmer. who likes to play a losing match, or run a losing race?
that's besides the point. today at training. we capsized. yupp you didnt heard wrongly, we capsized. when we arent supposed to. and guess what. coach got really pissed with us he scolded us and threatened to not let us use that boat. its not a big deal. i dont mind not using it. but hey he thought we're playing and were making lame excuses. whatever coach. i'm starting to find canoeing meaningless. i mean you work so hard for something and you're bound to bump into something along the way. no matter what. and all the bad things just seem to be happening to me alone. everyone else is like enjoying it and stuff. sighs.
well just when you think things simply cant get worse. it just did. besides the canoeing aspect that's depressing, the social part is too. wow so what if i've oh-so-many friends? i hardly even spend anytime with them doing the things we like. i dont get that luxury. and yes, my friends might seem alot. but guess what. when everyone thinks that way, everyone thinks that there'll always be someone for me to talk to. truth is, there isnt. well i guess its just something i have been trying to get used to after stepping into sji in sec1. the many interrelations. let me just map out some.
mg-ac
hci-ny
ri-rgs
and now, we've a new addition to the family.
hci-rgs.
guess where i figured out sji should be?
sji- a hill full of tombs.
yupp, you might not believe what i'm about to say. but, no one otherside sji, cares about sji. just ponder over it before you start objecting. and if you're objecting, shows two things. either you're an awesome socialite who has the whole school next door talking about you upon your entry, or you just cant wake up to reality or are too busy to actually check the dictionary on what the word friends mean. why dont you try and go make a survey? go survey how many percent of the girl's school's girls are attached or are previously attached to sji guys. i shall be nice alright. 10%? ya dont judge a book by its cover, or a person by his school/looks. i so believe you.
and i wonder who came out with look at the bright side of things. i just wonder if there's equal distribution of positive things. but i have to agree that life is full of ups and downs. just that some people experience all the ups, while the rest experience all the down.
hmm i guess that's just me feeling down. i guess ups always seem very little. after all, happy times pass faster and that's why we see it as lesser. and the down times, are normally more horrible and a torture. so ya. nothing i can do to cheer anyone up now. for i know nothing can cheer me up now, so i guess, let nature take its course.
hinyang.
picture this.
amongst all that off season trainings, the shifting of focus from canoeing to probably studies and the social aspect, then suddenly, coach tells you know that there's a competition on the 21st and takes it that you want to be taking part. sure why not, i mean, we can always take part in another competition. but hello? not when you only let us 15days to the competition. you probably are still 20plus days from reaching your peak. what the hell is the freaking point of someone acutally taking part in a competition, when you know at your peak, you have a fighting chance of winning, which makes off peak even slimmer. who likes to play a losing match, or run a losing race?
that's besides the point. today at training. we capsized. yupp you didnt heard wrongly, we capsized. when we arent supposed to. and guess what. coach got really pissed with us he scolded us and threatened to not let us use that boat. its not a big deal. i dont mind not using it. but hey he thought we're playing and were making lame excuses. whatever coach. i'm starting to find canoeing meaningless. i mean you work so hard for something and you're bound to bump into something along the way. no matter what. and all the bad things just seem to be happening to me alone. everyone else is like enjoying it and stuff. sighs.
well just when you think things simply cant get worse. it just did. besides the canoeing aspect that's depressing, the social part is too. wow so what if i've oh-so-many friends? i hardly even spend anytime with them doing the things we like. i dont get that luxury. and yes, my friends might seem alot. but guess what. when everyone thinks that way, everyone thinks that there'll always be someone for me to talk to. truth is, there isnt. well i guess its just something i have been trying to get used to after stepping into sji in sec1. the many interrelations. let me just map out some.
mg-ac
hci-ny
ri-rgs
and now, we've a new addition to the family.
hci-rgs.
guess where i figured out sji should be?
sji- a hill full of tombs.
yupp, you might not believe what i'm about to say. but, no one otherside sji, cares about sji. just ponder over it before you start objecting. and if you're objecting, shows two things. either you're an awesome socialite who has the whole school next door talking about you upon your entry, or you just cant wake up to reality or are too busy to actually check the dictionary on what the word friends mean. why dont you try and go make a survey? go survey how many percent of the girl's school's girls are attached or are previously attached to sji guys. i shall be nice alright. 10%? ya dont judge a book by its cover, or a person by his school/looks. i so believe you.
and i wonder who came out with look at the bright side of things. i just wonder if there's equal distribution of positive things. but i have to agree that life is full of ups and downs. just that some people experience all the ups, while the rest experience all the down.
hmm i guess that's just me feeling down. i guess ups always seem very little. after all, happy times pass faster and that's why we see it as lesser. and the down times, are normally more horrible and a torture. so ya. nothing i can do to cheer anyone up now. for i know nothing can cheer me up now, so i guess, let nature take its course.
hinyang.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
i think i'm just gonna crack.
anytime.
wanna know why?
cos i cant take the pressure lorh!
well not that i cant take the pressure or stress at all but at times, i can just snap
and lose control of myself. that is a HUGE flaw on my part alright and i hate it
when i look down on myself and not believe that i really can do it.
i look at the 'suicide' note someone gave me and hey now i know how it really feels.
duhh that person didnt commit suicide. he's still well and alive. i hate it when i'm
weak. i just hate it alright and i dont think i make ANY sense right now. i'm just typing
what comes into my effing mind get it? so if you dont like it then just leave this blog.
no one's asking you to read right?
anyway. i dunno whats wrong with me but heck i will remain calm and not crack.
i will not crack.
i will not crack.
i will not crack.
of course, i'll not. heh. who am i kiding? myself lah. DUH! yes richard! i am dumb
and stupid for your own sake! sheesh. whatever lah and mr tang isnt HOT. sheesh.
bad taste uh.
lalala!
i'm normal. (:
anytime.
wanna know why?
cos i cant take the pressure lorh!
well not that i cant take the pressure or stress at all but at times, i can just snap
and lose control of myself. that is a HUGE flaw on my part alright and i hate it
when i look down on myself and not believe that i really can do it.
i look at the 'suicide' note someone gave me and hey now i know how it really feels.
duhh that person didnt commit suicide. he's still well and alive. i hate it when i'm
weak. i just hate it alright and i dont think i make ANY sense right now. i'm just typing
what comes into my effing mind get it? so if you dont like it then just leave this blog.
no one's asking you to read right?
anyway. i dunno whats wrong with me but heck i will remain calm and not crack.
i will not crack.
i will not crack.
i will not crack.
of course, i'll not. heh. who am i kiding? myself lah. DUH! yes richard! i am dumb
and stupid for your own sake! sheesh. whatever lah and mr tang isnt HOT. sheesh.
bad taste uh.
lalala!
i'm normal. (:
Monday, July 03, 2006
alright. i guess i havent been online for sometime. been really busy. let's see. friday evening there was training, then there was kindred's at night. so it was practically lunch during the interval. that wasnt really a tiring day.
okay then came day two, saturday. i went fishing with alastair and john paul at east coast. which got us like 90% cooked. there wasnt many fishes caught, though without its fun. just feels really fun.
then sunday there was milk run. i ran and helped alastair's shop after the run. was really fun.
today i had training too.
bleh dont feel like going to school tomorrow.
anyways brazil's lousy.
okay then came day two, saturday. i went fishing with alastair and john paul at east coast. which got us like 90% cooked. there wasnt many fishes caught, though without its fun. just feels really fun.
then sunday there was milk run. i ran and helped alastair's shop after the run. was really fun.
today i had training too.
bleh dont feel like going to school tomorrow.
anyways brazil's lousy.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Ten+X Thoughts
(1) I just felt like updating this blog.
(2) I dont think its an obligation.
(3) Just felt that it should be kept alive.
(4) This is going to be very random.
(5) Why are people not replying my smses?
(6) Why must my handphone charger be faulty?
(7) Why must there be undercurrents amidst all these?
(8) MILK run is somehow lame.
(9) World Cup has so much drama.
(10) I love you.
(11) I miss you.
(12) I like your smile.
(13) School is getting stupid.
(14) I wanna move to the front of class.
(15) But me and yong quan keep forgetting to ask ms ong.
(16) Dikir is gonna be fun.
(17) Woah i do think of lots of things.
(18) Maybe i should stop.
(19) Heck i've started a monologue.
(20) I should continue this in my own blog.
(21) Someone else should update this blog.
(22) Find the value of X.
i miss those times when we were close. haha. Klose will win it for Germany!
(now that England is gone) byebye.
(1) I just felt like updating this blog.
(2) I dont think its an obligation.
(3) Just felt that it should be kept alive.
(4) This is going to be very random.
(5) Why are people not replying my smses?
(6) Why must my handphone charger be faulty?
(7) Why must there be undercurrents amidst all these?
(8) MILK run is somehow lame.
(9) World Cup has so much drama.
(10) I love you.
(11) I miss you.
(12) I like your smile.
(13) School is getting stupid.
(14) I wanna move to the front of class.
(15) But me and yong quan keep forgetting to ask ms ong.
(16) Dikir is gonna be fun.
(17) Woah i do think of lots of things.
(18) Maybe i should stop.
(19) Heck i've started a monologue.
(20) I should continue this in my own blog.
(21) Someone else should update this blog.
(22) Find the value of X.
i miss those times when we were close. haha. Klose will win it for Germany!
(now that England is gone) byebye.
Monday, June 26, 2006
haha.
Happy Birthday Hin Yang! (:
sorry that i forgot to bring your gift today.
lol. goodnight people!
and just to make richard happy,
IQ.
Happy Birthday Hin Yang! (:
lol. goodnight people!
and just to make richard happy,
IQ.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
argentina vs portugal
england vs ecuador
watch out for these games
gonna be a cracker....
K7
england vs ecuador
watch out for these games
gonna be a cracker....
K7
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
haha. just finished watching SI. okay i might have ended about an hour ago but hey it doesn't
matter right? so anyway its okay i guess. the girls gave it their best but the one i'm supporting
is meryl! yupp and her rendition of xtina's song is good enough to put her through. too bad hinyang had to miss her performance. haha. okay i shall update short short. nothing to write anyway. oh my sore eye is getting better.
iqbalFIRdaus.
matter right? so anyway its okay i guess. the girls gave it their best but the one i'm supporting
is meryl! yupp and her rendition of xtina's song is good enough to put her through. too bad hinyang had to miss her performance. haha. okay i shall update short short. nothing to write anyway. oh my sore eye is getting better.
iqbalFIRdaus.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
and for all the true josephians out there. thank you. i'm proud to be one. you people change my life. respects.
hinyang
hinyang
yesterday's races. wonderful memories. though we arent the best. it definitely was beneficial. it sure did made us a better team. while acting as a wake up call to all. we did our best. though not the best. so hopefully, when sec3s take over, it'll change.
hinyang happy? lol.
hinyang happy? lol.
Saturday, June 17, 2006
hello there ppl. howz life. just came back frm ncc spes course yesterday. it was great! haha. but martin is so screwed when he reopens. because of tt ass, the sji boys couldn't get their sgt ranks. kk, i think i better bring the ranting elsewhere.
well, holidays are almost over. one more week left onli. i dun feel like going back to school. i dunno if its laziness or what lahh. just feel tt school is a sucky place. oh maybe being in upper sec is sucky. ohwells. like as if my complains would solve everything. lol. wish it could. haha
this is official. iv gone 3 weeks without playing soccer. man... this is real bad. ahhh. even watching the world cup doesn't make up for tt. man, i better get down to playing soon. well, there. a short update(:
well, holidays are almost over. one more week left onli. i dun feel like going back to school. i dunno if its laziness or what lahh. just feel tt school is a sucky place. oh maybe being in upper sec is sucky. ohwells. like as if my complains would solve everything. lol. wish it could. haha
this is official. iv gone 3 weeks without playing soccer. man... this is real bad. ahhh. even watching the world cup doesn't make up for tt. man, i better get down to playing soon. well, there. a short update(:
and when you thought everything was going your way, reality comes back biting
off your rear. sigh. i've been living in a fairytale so far. now, back to reality. -shrugs-
i'm sorry.
off your rear. sigh. i've been living in a fairytale so far. now, back to reality. -shrugs-
Friday, June 16, 2006
hmm no one's really interested in talking here. like there's no one to be talking to either. everyone's just giving themselves an excuse in everything. not just posting alright. not pointing fingers here. nor am i saying that i dont. just feel that its really horrible. oh wells.
new blogskin up. kinda like it. so yeah.
enjoy people!
enjoy people!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
i'm so dead. alright. i'm invisible to you.
i'm retarded. i'm talking to myself. well seemed that way. anyways thanks jo.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
hrmmm. its been a long time since i posted here.
as always huh? not posting regularly and all. ahh well.
i'm posting now! haha. i shall make it a point to post
here every now and then alright.
okay.
the first week of the june hols. well it does have its
highs and lows. i went out alot this week. i ate alot
this week. i bum around alot this week. so its been
a great week? erh. yeah it is. haha.
BUT!
that didn't stop any bad things from happening. ugh.
how i wish i can rant all i want here but no i can't. so i'll
just leave it aside and let it be done by itself. no point
even thinking about it. whatever it is. i'm just going
to do my best during that specified period of the day.
haha. my juniors are such jokers. they aren't that bad
afterall. a funky but weird bunch.
and to the writer of the posts below, cheer up okay.
i know you can do it. don't let setbacks affect you that
much. setbacks are there for a reason and no they aren't
there to bring you down. they are there for you to learn
from there. and if you look at it from another perspective,
maybe it is just another test and someone up there is just
testing you. so do take this obstacle in your pride ya? don't
let it bring your confidence down no matter what. be strong
lah dude. haha. (:
and so here i end when i actually have alot more to write
but i forgot what to actually blog. haha.
goodnight.
as always huh? not posting regularly and all. ahh well.
i'm posting now! haha. i shall make it a point to post
here every now and then alright.
okay.
the first week of the june hols. well it does have its
highs and lows. i went out alot this week. i ate alot
this week. i bum around alot this week. so its been
a great week? erh. yeah it is. haha.
BUT!
that didn't stop any bad things from happening. ugh.
how i wish i can rant all i want here but no i can't. so i'll
just leave it aside and let it be done by itself. no point
even thinking about it. whatever it is. i'm just going
to do my best during that specified period of the day.
haha. my juniors are such jokers. they aren't that bad
afterall. a funky but weird bunch.
and to the writer of the posts below, cheer up okay.
i know you can do it. don't let setbacks affect you that
much. setbacks are there for a reason and no they aren't
there to bring you down. they are there for you to learn
from there. and if you look at it from another perspective,
maybe it is just another test and someone up there is just
testing you. so do take this obstacle in your pride ya? don't
let it bring your confidence down no matter what. be strong
lah dude. haha. (:
and so here i end when i actually have alot more to write
but i forgot what to actually blog. haha.
goodnight.
i'm still waiting.
do give me your answer soon.
i'd like to hear from you.
do give me your answer soon.
i'd like to hear from you.
horrible.
horrible.
that's how i feel.
horrible.
that's how i feel.
yesyes. winning isnt about everything in the sporting areana. but hey. why dont you just take a look at year 2006 and let me know how you'll feel if it happened to you.
nationals juniors : 4th in HEATS
did not go any further
nationals canoeing : 4th in HEATS
did not go any further either
and now dragonboat.
even in canoeing, my seniors still feed back that my strokes are still weird.
gosh.
nationals juniors : 4th in HEATS
did not go any further
nationals canoeing : 4th in HEATS
did not go any further either
and now dragonboat.
even in canoeing, my seniors still feed back that my strokes are still weird.
gosh.
every competition is aimed to bring out the best in yourself, your team and your opponents. people who are related to you.
the passion. the sweat. the hardwork. the time. the effort. the determination. the encouragements.
the above elements play vital roles in competitions. however, in order to have winners, there must be people who lose. those who lose aren't losers, as long as they are abole to prove themselves in the course of the race, they are respected as well.
however, i'm going through the stages of racing a losing race over and over again. without being respected that is. for in our real life, no one actually truely look into what's behind every champion, and those who finish behind him.
today's dragonboat training. our b division dragonboat lost to firstly, a c division dragonboat, its sji boat, secondly we lost to a chij dragonboat. i'm not sure which division but they're probably b division too.
yupp they might be just lucky for that race. but things didnt show that it was luck on their side, but something missing on our side during the second race in which we actually lost over a greater distance. it was one demoralising race. one that all mental was lost. there is no hopes pinned on the competition.
no one's looking forward to the dragonboat nationals after such defeat. sighs.
the passion. the sweat. the hardwork. the time. the effort. the determination. the encouragements.
the above elements play vital roles in competitions. however, in order to have winners, there must be people who lose. those who lose aren't losers, as long as they are abole to prove themselves in the course of the race, they are respected as well.
however, i'm going through the stages of racing a losing race over and over again. without being respected that is. for in our real life, no one actually truely look into what's behind every champion, and those who finish behind him.
today's dragonboat training. our b division dragonboat lost to firstly, a c division dragonboat, its sji boat, secondly we lost to a chij dragonboat. i'm not sure which division but they're probably b division too.
yupp they might be just lucky for that race. but things didnt show that it was luck on their side, but something missing on our side during the second race in which we actually lost over a greater distance. it was one demoralising race. one that all mental was lost. there is no hopes pinned on the competition.
no one's looking forward to the dragonboat nationals after such defeat. sighs.
Friday, June 02, 2006
eyy. i wanna go out! have been dying to lah.
haha. okay why am i telling you this here.
online discussion! haha.
haha. okay why am i telling you this here.
online discussion! haha.
gosh its so boring to be at home. i wanna go out. i wanna buy my england cap. someone go with me.
eh guys regarding the class bbq. i dont know if you people have gotten ready. i know its quite irresponsible of me to be rushing you people when i'm not even helping you guys in preparations and stuff. well if there's anything that you need my help, feel free to just ask. i dont live that far from sentosa. and ya i've tent so i'll bring it along with me. hopefully we can get the comfirmation soon. thanks.
Monday, May 29, 2006
just suddenly bumped into this picture. 
somehow i look very cheerful. however, till date. i doubt i have gotten over that.
somehow i look very cheerful. however, till date. i doubt i have gotten over that.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
something i forgot. holidays happy. oka doesnt sound nice. merry holidays to all. please dont remind me when holidays are coming to an end please. because it probably seem as tomorrow. hahas.
hmm everyone seem to be having their promises for the holidays posted. where's mine. i wonder where. this holiday, i wont be making any promises. because i wont want to be disappointing myself when i dont achieve those goals. i wont want others commenting on my promises either. i guess i'll just keep them to myself and share the joy with you people when i'm done? just be sure that i'll be working hard to achieve those goals. especially the promises to wee kang for a nicer body. lol. joking.
sorry guys if i aint in the best of moods to be talking to lately. especially with the results and stuff. dont you worry. i'll be alright. very soon.
p.s. those reading these. please please please please keep it a joke. lol.
sorry guys if i aint in the best of moods to be talking to lately. especially with the results and stuff. dont you worry. i'll be alright. very soon.
p.s. those reading these. please please please please keep it a joke. lol.
happy holidays to all(:
well, its gonna be a great mth to look forward to. trainings, camps, projects, piles of homework, class gatherings [yay!], revisions.... so much to look forward to. hahas. hopefully i won't miss sch too much. lolz. well atleast i know i'll be meeting wif some of my 321ers during the holidays. hv to do physics ubd. lolz. built a chair out of cardboard. lol. gonna be an interesting project. so its me, paul, zen, fabz and gm working on cardboard chair. wow. how fun. lol.
then there's specs course. the biggest camp of my life. its gonna be tough, but i think i'll be ready for it. i'll be so happy if i pull through successfully. so wish me luck! =D hahas.
better get started on h/w soon. later i die. well, gonna play soccer 2moro. tts all for now. happy birthday bro(: nitez
KesA
well, its gonna be a great mth to look forward to. trainings, camps, projects, piles of homework, class gatherings [yay!], revisions.... so much to look forward to. hahas. hopefully i won't miss sch too much. lolz. well atleast i know i'll be meeting wif some of my 321ers during the holidays. hv to do physics ubd. lolz. built a chair out of cardboard. lol. gonna be an interesting project. so its me, paul, zen, fabz and gm working on cardboard chair. wow. how fun. lol.
then there's specs course. the biggest camp of my life. its gonna be tough, but i think i'll be ready for it. i'll be so happy if i pull through successfully. so wish me luck! =D hahas.
better get started on h/w soon. later i die. well, gonna play soccer 2moro. tts all for now. happy birthday bro(: nitez
KesA
Saturday, May 27, 2006
good morning people! (:
hope you all had a great rest last night.
cause i did. haha. slept in the car, on the
sofa and on my bed. yeap. first time in
my life. slept three times in a day. funky!
so yesterday was dragonboat interhouse.
everyone was excited and hyped out about
it. we were like 'come on. i wanna row now!'
well despite hisyam's constant paranoia of
capsizing and drowning in the kallang river,
he still went rowing anyway. quite cool.
so anyway. sec 3 batch for fintan got second
for both races. lost to lawrence and marcian
respectively. ahh wells. we tried our best right?
and thats the primary thing in dragonboating.
uniting 12-24 men and uniting their minds as one.
building team spirit and teamwork. anything after
that is secondary. winning 1st is a bonus and well
2nd isn't that bad. still got our medals! (:
so yeah. lawrence will be dethroned next year anyway.
go fintan!
heyy i want to have an outing lah people.
plus nithin and marcus. how about that?
please? (:
hope you all had a great rest last night.
cause i did. haha. slept in the car, on the
sofa and on my bed. yeap. first time in
my life. slept three times in a day. funky!
so yesterday was dragonboat interhouse.
everyone was excited and hyped out about
it. we were like 'come on. i wanna row now!'
well despite hisyam's constant paranoia of
capsizing and drowning in the kallang river,
he still went rowing anyway. quite cool.
so anyway. sec 3 batch for fintan got second
for both races. lost to lawrence and marcian
respectively. ahh wells. we tried our best right?
and thats the primary thing in dragonboating.
uniting 12-24 men and uniting their minds as one.
building team spirit and teamwork. anything after
that is secondary. winning 1st is a bonus and well
2nd isn't that bad. still got our medals! (:
so yeah. lawrence will be dethroned next year anyway.
go fintan!
heyy i want to have an outing lah people.
plus nithin and marcus. how about that?
please? (:
Sunday, May 21, 2006
hahas wednesday was like really fun. as usual, our group played before we did anything. then when tian ye came, we started working. everyone was busy with something. although the stuff tian ye did came in piles.
i'm sure we slept very early. early in the morning that was. and surprisingly, that 'early night' nor that injured LEGS caused much of a problem. i've no complains for that. getting third, to what i see, was very much a luck affair.
here's what its like. after this, you'll agree its a luck affair. but for those who think that me rehearsing these stuff here to my friends who dont know anything about how lucky i was that day, you're invited to leave, but do find a good reason before you call me arrogant.
so i started the race at the front together with shauqi. on the siren, shauqi went in front, with wei han close behind, note, they wont first. a bunch of clowns were spriting to the front and joking around. seriously, i found them quite amusing. so after their clown acts, vinoth was in front. a clear lead indeed.
then there's shauqi obviously not that far from vinoth, wei han charging the front part of the forest, starting his recovery the second, however with the pressure of a sec4. so there i was, running at a constant pace. to my surprise, anirudth came along with avinash. i though well sweet we can all run together. then there goes anirudth rushing in front to be beside wei han.
they kept building on their lead. there i was, with my confidence level dropping constantly, while running with avinash. however, towards the end of the forest, i found myself catching up with weihan's trio slowly.
then on the road, wei han dropped due to injury. so i overtook and went with anirudth for sometime before i overtook. far away, i saw a few guys. at that point of time, i thought vinoth was counted as sec4, so was hahn. so that made me 2nd. i was quite contented, something i shouldn't have felt.
it was quite difficult keeping at that pace along the round with uphills and downhills. when i past the last bus stop, i saws vinoth and hahn. hahn stopped before running upon seeing vinoth. when i tunred into the carpark, i saw hahn running the other way towards the shop. while vinoth, who was behind hahn, just ran straight. when i crossed the line, i saw that i was third, for vinoth was counted a sec3. i was like wth. thanks shauqi for comforting me. but i felt totally played out. running all along thinking i was 2nd just to find out i lost to someone older.
well i still feel lucky. and i guess i've to thank god for the chance to complete the race, considering the fact that i had an injury two days before. i've nothing more to say i guess.
btw if i offended anyone, i'm sorry. if i seem to be mocking you in public by raising the whole issue up again to everyone, i'm sorry. this post is only aimed to fill others in one that day's race and not to put down anyone.
it was a nice race guys. everyone did well. including those who ponned school the next day! wth.
i'm sure we slept very early. early in the morning that was. and surprisingly, that 'early night' nor that injured LEGS caused much of a problem. i've no complains for that. getting third, to what i see, was very much a luck affair.
here's what its like. after this, you'll agree its a luck affair. but for those who think that me rehearsing these stuff here to my friends who dont know anything about how lucky i was that day, you're invited to leave, but do find a good reason before you call me arrogant.
so i started the race at the front together with shauqi. on the siren, shauqi went in front, with wei han close behind, note, they wont first. a bunch of clowns were spriting to the front and joking around. seriously, i found them quite amusing. so after their clown acts, vinoth was in front. a clear lead indeed.
then there's shauqi obviously not that far from vinoth, wei han charging the front part of the forest, starting his recovery the second, however with the pressure of a sec4. so there i was, running at a constant pace. to my surprise, anirudth came along with avinash. i though well sweet we can all run together. then there goes anirudth rushing in front to be beside wei han.
they kept building on their lead. there i was, with my confidence level dropping constantly, while running with avinash. however, towards the end of the forest, i found myself catching up with weihan's trio slowly.
then on the road, wei han dropped due to injury. so i overtook and went with anirudth for sometime before i overtook. far away, i saw a few guys. at that point of time, i thought vinoth was counted as sec4, so was hahn. so that made me 2nd. i was quite contented, something i shouldn't have felt.
it was quite difficult keeping at that pace along the round with uphills and downhills. when i past the last bus stop, i saws vinoth and hahn. hahn stopped before running upon seeing vinoth. when i tunred into the carpark, i saw hahn running the other way towards the shop. while vinoth, who was behind hahn, just ran straight. when i crossed the line, i saw that i was third, for vinoth was counted a sec3. i was like wth. thanks shauqi for comforting me. but i felt totally played out. running all along thinking i was 2nd just to find out i lost to someone older.
well i still feel lucky. and i guess i've to thank god for the chance to complete the race, considering the fact that i had an injury two days before. i've nothing more to say i guess.
btw if i offended anyone, i'm sorry. if i seem to be mocking you in public by raising the whole issue up again to everyone, i'm sorry. this post is only aimed to fill others in one that day's race and not to put down anyone.
it was a nice race guys. everyone did well. including those who ponned school the next day! wth.
Friday, May 19, 2006
okay. lets keep this post a happy one.
anyway. wednesday was supposed to
be a holiday but i ended up working
really hard just to finish our bio ubd
project. yes at hinyang's house was
where we worked our butts off all
the way till 12+am and while kesavan
was enjoying himself going out and all.
sheesh. but it was fun. right hinyang? haha.
hrmm. then we had cross country the
next day! yesyes we turned in very
early the night before eh? But you know
it didn't affect me or maybe hinyang
for that matter. he got like third
for cross country competitive. haha.
congrats to him. and to kesavan who
got 66th? LOL. okay i got top three
for the mass run but its no big. a
great pleasure to run with weekang and
bryden. haha.
and then TODAY!
i didn't attend school. lol. a long
story. x)
goodnight everyone!
anyway. wednesday was supposed to
be a holiday but i ended up working
really hard just to finish our bio ubd
project. yes at hinyang's house was
where we worked our butts off all
the way till 12+am and while kesavan
was enjoying himself going out and all.
sheesh. but it was fun. right hinyang? haha.
hrmm. then we had cross country the
next day! yesyes we turned in very
early the night before eh? But you know
it didn't affect me or maybe hinyang
for that matter. he got like third
for cross country competitive. haha.
congrats to him. and to kesavan who
got 66th? LOL. okay i got top three
for the mass run but its no big. a
great pleasure to run with weekang and
bryden. haha.
and then TODAY!
i didn't attend school. lol. a long
story. x)
goodnight everyone!
Sunday, May 14, 2006
hello!! happy mother's day to all!!! no wait. scratch tt. i mean, happy mother's day to all mothers! hahas. xD new record being set here. im blogging at 5:56am! whee~ hahas
okok, well, exams are over. like FINALLY. they seemed to go on forever. now can relax! well, atleast till results are out aniwae. haha. physics sure fail liao. and a bit of gd/bad news for all josephians out there! mr. ho is going to permenantly join sji as a physics teacher from august! haha! great! yeah right.... luckily, he ain't gonna teach me. yay! oh, and another piece of news. mr. bernard low is leaving us at the end of this term to teach overseas. yupp, tts the latest teacher-related news.
ohoh! specs course comin up. gonna die liao. 4 days... ahhh. i might not come out alive. xD ahhwells, better go prepare for mother's day suprise. hehe, buhbye world! (:
okok, well, exams are over. like FINALLY. they seemed to go on forever. now can relax! well, atleast till results are out aniwae. haha. physics sure fail liao. and a bit of gd/bad news for all josephians out there! mr. ho is going to permenantly join sji as a physics teacher from august! haha! great! yeah right.... luckily, he ain't gonna teach me. yay! oh, and another piece of news. mr. bernard low is leaving us at the end of this term to teach overseas. yupp, tts the latest teacher-related news.
ohoh! specs course comin up. gonna die liao. 4 days... ahhh. i might not come out alive. xD ahhwells, better go prepare for mother's day suprise. hehe, buhbye world! (:
Saturday, May 13, 2006
haha. i just realised i haven't blogged here
in a long time. readers must have missed
my many short little paragraphs that i
write. lol. okay ermm fine the ego is still
in me.
i think our ways of blogging are really
distinctive. i blog this way, hinyang the other
and kesavan another. so you kinda know
who is writing any of the entries. no prize for
guesssing who this is eh?
so many things have happened and some
of this things have actually changed certain
perspectives in our(or at least mine) lives
and people do change in the course of these
events. i think i did, in some way. more or
less mature now and snappier. lol. but its
the same person inside. really it is. i'm still
me. haha. (:
whee! okay maybe i should stop doing that
kind of stuffs. ahh wells. i don't know. maybe...
not. so whee! (x
Happy Mother's Day!
in a long time. readers must have missed
my many short little paragraphs that i
write. lol. okay ermm fine the ego is still
in me.
i think our ways of blogging are really
distinctive. i blog this way, hinyang the other
and kesavan another. so you kinda know
who is writing any of the entries. no prize for
guesssing who this is eh?
so many things have happened and some
of this things have actually changed certain
perspectives in our(or at least mine) lives
and people do change in the course of these
events. i think i did, in some way. more or
less mature now and snappier. lol. but its
the same person inside. really it is. i'm still
me. haha. (:
whee! okay maybe i should stop doing that
kind of stuffs. ahh wells. i don't know. maybe...
not. so whee! (x
Happy Mother's Day!
Friday, May 12, 2006
exams are over!
Thursday, May 04, 2006
people
its
01:02:03 04/05/06
its
01:02:03 04/05/06
people.
the time we've been waiting for has arrived.
or at least i've been waiting for.
i announce it
01:02:03 04/05/06
the time we've been waiting for has arrived.
or at least i've been waiting for.
i announce it
01:02:03 04/05/06
oh no. the time and mine's different. so hard.
testing testing. just want to see how this thing really works, especially with the time.
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
people!
listen to me!
dont go boycotting Japanese goods on May 4th, this thursday!
i want to start another May 4th movement!
this May4th, and only this may 4th
look at your watch, notice the date and time!
look at your watch 2mins and 3secs after 1pm.
then you'll notice
it is 01:02:03 04/05/06
once in a lifetime, dont miss it.
listen to me!
dont go boycotting Japanese goods on May 4th, this thursday!
i want to start another May 4th movement!
this May4th, and only this may 4th
look at your watch, notice the date and time!
look at your watch 2mins and 3secs after 1pm.
then you'll notice
it is 01:02:03 04/05/06
once in a lifetime, dont miss it.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
now to address the issue closer to me. iqbal, i'm really sorry i didnt attempt talking to you and stuff in school. it just seems so hard with all that tests. and i simply dont know how to begin. calvin seems to be over k7 now and i just dont know what to do about it. without k7 and you, i feel that there is no one i actually understand around me. yes, there are new friends circulating around. but i know and we know that those are just good weather friends. we know that we're not serious about having them as friends. they just dont fit 'friends 4eva' you know. and now that everything's drifting apart, i seriously dont know what to do about it. its just hard for me to come between you and calvin. and without k7 in the class, it is very hard for me to that. even if k7's in class now, he'll probably form a trio with you and calvin. i just hope we can just talk like we used to. and stand up for rgs and mgs respectively. though i think my mgs stand is starting to get rocky. wells things arent smoothly, just hope someone would understand.
i've two matters to address, so i think i'll be posting twice. anyways, hsm, i dont think we should be talking about something that has already pass and there is nothing our quarrelling here can do to change the result. then i see no point in letting your friendship go sour over this alright? and jk, whether the guy gives k7 this chance or not doesnt show anything. if he was so noble in his doings, he doesnt need to tell others his intentions on doing so, others can see his intentions by themselves. and what's with you guys? its not like k7 didnt put his best foot forward during the match. yes, it might not have been perfect, but do you think he planned it that way? do you actually think that he wanted sji to be losing to ri? and so what do you get by saying that he's lousy? trying to tell others that sji has no one skillful and all we have are lousy players? well only way you can say someone's lousy is to be better than him. and to be better than him, prove it. come on. he played with you guys, dripped sweat, braced rain, shed blood, and now you put him down over a game? so what do you want him to do? go back through time? not sign up for the next otega cup? sit down and cry? come on. move on. you guys should be spending your time planning the next sji victory.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
heyy world.... im realli excited! ask me why! ask me why! cause 2moro's the ortega cup! hehex. get to play against ri.... can't wait. (though my inclusion in the team was by controversal means xP) so all u ppl out there frm earth,mars, and everywhere else! come down to support sji as we take on ri in what would surely be a entertaining and mouth-watering match. hahas! so wat r u waiting for! ohh yeahh, there's still so much time left for the game. hahas.... lolz.... 2moro afternoon ppl! >.<
-kEsAvAn
joga bonito
-kEsAvAn
joga bonito
Sunday, April 23, 2006
i'm sad. sighs. i really think right its of no use
being nice at all cause the more you are nice,
people tend to expect so much from you. it can
be really irritating at times. i can't smile or be
cheerful all the time right? i mean i'm no robot
programmed to be mr-happy-all-the-time.
i'm a human for goodness sake and when i
don't meet this expectations, people will think i
am a snob. like wtf. i have problems too you know.
what? you want me to say this when i'm down,
"HELLO WORLD! i'm very sad and depressed.
look at me smile! ((((: hahahaha! i just love being
depressed and put down, don't you? ((((:"
like that? sighs. last night was probably one of the
rarest ocassion when i broke down in public. the
faucet was just turned on. i can't control it.
and oh isn't taking someone else's stuffs WITHOUT his
consent considered STEALING? and the owner has every
right in the world to take it back? like hello! his iPod and
handphone are inside the damn thing. at least ask first.
okay fine i admit i might not be one of those manly guys
who are rough, rowdy and whatnot but that doesn't mean
i'm freaking gay you bastards. i told myself so many times
to ignore such effing judgement but i just can't take it any-
more alright. its too much. well if you want me to be man
enough and discard my gentleman/good boy image then
fine i'll make sure i'll include 'fuck' in every sentence i say.
but you know what. its all not worth it. i can't please practically
everyone cause if i do i'll be the most miserable man on earth.
i'll continue being 'gay' or as you call it cause thats me and if you
don't like it, fuck off.
being nice at all cause the more you are nice,
people tend to expect so much from you. it can
be really irritating at times. i can't smile or be
cheerful all the time right? i mean i'm no robot
programmed to be mr-happy-all-the-time.
i'm a human for goodness sake and when i
don't meet this expectations, people will think i
am a snob. like wtf. i have problems too you know.
what? you want me to say this when i'm down,
"HELLO WORLD! i'm very sad and depressed.
look at me smile! ((((: hahahaha! i just love being
depressed and put down, don't you? ((((:"
like that? sighs. last night was probably one of the
rarest ocassion when i broke down in public. the
faucet was just turned on. i can't control it.
and oh isn't taking someone else's stuffs WITHOUT his
consent considered STEALING? and the owner has every
right in the world to take it back? like hello! his iPod and
handphone are inside the damn thing. at least ask first.
okay fine i admit i might not be one of those manly guys
who are rough, rowdy and whatnot but that doesn't mean
i'm freaking gay you bastards. i told myself so many times
to ignore such effing judgement but i just can't take it any-
more alright. its too much. well if you want me to be man
enough and discard my gentleman/good boy image then
fine i'll make sure i'll include 'fuck' in every sentence i say.
but you know what. its all not worth it. i can't please practically
everyone cause if i do i'll be the most miserable man on earth.
i'll continue being 'gay' or as you call it cause thats me and if you
don't like it, fuck off.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
and i lost my favourite game..
and i lost my favourite game..
4th in heats..
AGAIN..
i found the answer to all the problems..
its just me..
sorry if i disappoint you..
maybe i'm just aint as good as you think..
i'm sorry..
goodbye to the high achievements hinyang..
tears and rain
by james blunt..
suits my feelings..
and i lost my favourite game..
4th in heats..
AGAIN..
i found the answer to all the problems..
its just me..
sorry if i disappoint you..
maybe i'm just aint as good as you think..
i'm sorry..
goodbye to the high achievements hinyang..
tears and rain
by james blunt..
suits my feelings..
Friday, April 07, 2006
And I'm Losing My Favourite Game...
And I'm Losing My Favourite Game...
Why?
Why me?
Why does it happen to the others?
Why do i believe in angels?
Why do i believe you're one of them?
Why do i believe only you can help me pull through?
Why?
Why aren't you here by me?
Why aren't you here to hold my hand, cross that last hurdle?
Why?
What are you busy with?
Why do you not sense anything?
Why do you always need me to tell you?
Why?
Why can't you just spend more time with me?
Why?
A thousand and one Questions.
Why must there be Questions within us?
Where do we find the Answers?
Do they crawl up to you?
Creep up to you?
Get sent through someone else?
Why does it always happen together?
Can't we just do without a word in the dictionary? Depression
And I'm Losing My Favourite Game...
Why?
Why me?
Why does it happen to the others?
Why do i believe in angels?
Why do i believe you're one of them?
Why do i believe only you can help me pull through?
Why?
Why aren't you here by me?
Why aren't you here to hold my hand, cross that last hurdle?
Why?
What are you busy with?
Why do you not sense anything?
Why do you always need me to tell you?
Why?
Why can't you just spend more time with me?
Why?
A thousand and one Questions.
Why must there be Questions within us?
Where do we find the Answers?
Do they crawl up to you?
Creep up to you?
Get sent through someone else?
Why does it always happen together?
Can't we just do without a word in the dictionary? Depression
Thursday, April 06, 2006
hrm. its been a long time since i blogged here ya?
ah wells. i'm updating now am i not?
okay so here goes...
yesterday was english oral. all of us took it
on the same day but ended at different times
due to the difference in time and index numbers.
and you know i was the last of THE last person to
sit for it. haha. and augy goh is a funny character. (x
and kesa. cheer up kay? your oral can't be THAT bad. (:
okay its been nearly a month now and i've yet to have a
decent conversation with you. a decent one where i don't
have this obligation to say something to you and then you
reply and it just ends there. sighs. its really sad that we are
kinda avoiding each other. i'm sorry for that. well I find it
saddening but somehow i can't display it. the feeling just
becomes numb. it is too drastic of a change and i'm fearful that
i may just lose one of my friends. bottomline : we need to talk.
good luck to hinyang for his nationals this coming week. (:
work done and
here i end.
iqbalFirdaus
ah wells. i'm updating now am i not?
okay so here goes...
yesterday was english oral. all of us took it
on the same day but ended at different times
due to the difference in time and index numbers.
and you know i was the last of THE last person to
sit for it. haha. and augy goh is a funny character. (x
and kesa. cheer up kay? your oral can't be THAT bad. (:
decent conversation with you. a decent one where i don't
have this obligation to say something to you and then you
reply and it just ends there. sighs. its really sad that we are
kinda avoiding each other. i'm sorry for that. well I find it
i may just lose one of my friends. bottomline : we need to talk.
good luck to hinyang for his nationals this coming week. (:
work done and
here i end.
iqbalFirdaus
Friday, March 31, 2006
me? why i dont have a blog? because i havent the patience to sign in everyday to tell people what actually happened. and i prefer people asking. besides, i dont know who is looking at me talk.
Friday, March 24, 2006
no one's talking. everyone's busy with their own stuff. everyone's rather do their own stuff than do something for this blog. i guess it'll probably be one of the last few posts we'll have here. anyways treasure your last few moments reading posts here. you could actually scroll all the way to see where we first started off. yupp always remember, every little raindrop carries the beauty of a rainbow.
hinyang.
hinyang.
Thursday, March 16, 2006
-ignores picture from the previous post-
so anyways. life has been great (well kinda actually)
yeah and i'm like enjoying moment of it. ( i think)
so woohoo for life! my great, amazing, astounding
exciting, perfect and oh so wondeful life! haha.
being spastic over here cause i'm bored. sighs.
tomorrow is class barbeque/gathering!
With the return of those Intergrated Programmers
who left us last year. mmhmm. i just wanna eaaaaaat!
i wanna fatten up. gawd i'm only at 45kg?! what the hell!
sighs. some people are just born this way huh? ahh wells.
Ohh and life really has been great. HAHA.
/firdaus/
so anyways. life has been great (well kinda actually)
yeah and i'm like enjoying moment of it. ( i think)
so woohoo for life! my great, amazing, astounding
exciting, perfect and oh so wondeful life! haha.
being spastic over here cause i'm bored. sighs.
tomorrow is class barbeque/gathering!
With the return of those Intergrated Programmers
who left us last year. mmhmm. i just wanna eaaaaaat!
i wanna fatten up. gawd i'm only at 45kg?! what the hell!
sighs. some people are just born this way huh? ahh wells.
Ohh and life really has been great. HAHA.
/firdaus/
Sunday, March 12, 2006
ewwwww...... utterly disgusting, isn't it?? hahas. lolz. it makes him look...... old?? HAHA. ok, im stalking him here. lolz. byes xP
~~kesa~~
Saturday, March 11, 2006
depressed.
its just that stupid feeling of sadness that overwhelms you.
no one seems to understand.
i seriously dont know why.
sighs maybe i just have to learn it myself.
and be less dependent on people.
its just that stupid feeling of sadness that overwhelms you.
no one seems to understand.
i seriously dont know why.
sighs maybe i just have to learn it myself.
and be less dependent on people.
i'm exhausted. of life as a whole.
and there's simply no one who is of any help alright.
its like already tiring enough to have trainings almost everyday.
and at ptm the teacher will go ' oh do your work before your training and cut down on talking to your friends on the computer '
i was like mdm what's your problem? i just met you for the first time and you leave such a bad impression. i know you haven't life but i aint like you okay. i dont have a hubby. wait you arent attached. so that suggests why you're still single now.
then on the way back my dad went ' during the holidays its a good time for you to read some books unrelated to your text '
i went ' if i can finish my homework in time, i'm quite blessed '
so he said ' but you have to spare time for extra reading! '
i was like ' hey i want to go out okay. the last time i watched a movie was last year '
so he answered ' the last time i watched a movie was years ago '
sighs then when i talk to my friend, she was like ' i dont want to talk about it because i dont want to make you feel sad '
hmm no one's of any help.
guess sleeping's still the best.
till the day i wake up.
bye.
and there's simply no one who is of any help alright.
its like already tiring enough to have trainings almost everyday.
and at ptm the teacher will go ' oh do your work before your training and cut down on talking to your friends on the computer '
i was like mdm what's your problem? i just met you for the first time and you leave such a bad impression. i know you haven't life but i aint like you okay. i dont have a hubby. wait you arent attached. so that suggests why you're still single now.
then on the way back my dad went ' during the holidays its a good time for you to read some books unrelated to your text '
i went ' if i can finish my homework in time, i'm quite blessed '
so he said ' but you have to spare time for extra reading! '
i was like ' hey i want to go out okay. the last time i watched a movie was last year '
so he answered ' the last time i watched a movie was years ago '
sighs then when i talk to my friend, she was like ' i dont want to talk about it because i dont want to make you feel sad '
hmm no one's of any help.
guess sleeping's still the best.
till the day i wake up.
bye.
Friday, March 10, 2006
hellos world. its me again, blogging in this highly orange-fied blog. hehes xP man, its exactly...... 9.27am in the morning now. hehe. i shld be having...... ermmms e math? hahas, who bothers? no school today!!! yay!! hahas. but got one problem, later got ptm. blehhh. i hate ptms, esp if ur im ny shoes.... blehh. ohh aniwaes, class gathering in exactly a weeks time. 5pm to 10pm. at mr.ho's place. all 205ers invited. does tt include rgs 205ers also? hahas, i hv got absolutly no idea. hin yang's head of the whole thing. im well... his pa or something? lolz. but whoever comes, just rmb to make sure ur handphone is water-proof. ask marcus and he'll tell u why. hehe. highlight if the event: return of nithin. hahas. tt would definatly be one to look forward to. its gonna be fun!! hopefully i can go..... =/ but nvm, even if the one onli me is not there, it will still be enjoyable, dun worry. hehes xP im being insane here. hoho, wait. i just occured to me tt while im posting here, ho would be running is aquathalon, calv would be at prefects duty, and iqbal sleeping? hahas, lolz. random stuff. gd luck hin yang!! u better win or else..... hahas. lolz.
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yikes, 2moro is my under-17 tournament! -shudders- scary man. i wanna go up against my brother's team!! hahas. it will be a sorry end for them xP egoist man.... hahas. ok seriously. i thing we can win lahh. got the best dribbler in ruddy, gd defender in nige, gd tackler in satish, gd goalie in yin lun, and our inter class top scorer nick. well, hopefully we'll win!! hahas. well crapped enough lahh. shall end here. happy holidays to all!! =)
~~kesa~~
randomrandomrandomrandomrandomrandom
yikes, 2moro is my under-17 tournament! -shudders- scary man. i wanna go up against my brother's team!! hahas. it will be a sorry end for them xP egoist man.... hahas. ok seriously. i thing we can win lahh. got the best dribbler in ruddy, gd defender in nige, gd tackler in satish, gd goalie in yin lun, and our inter class top scorer nick. well, hopefully we'll win!! hahas. well crapped enough lahh. shall end here. happy holidays to all!! =)
~~kesa~~
Thursday, March 09, 2006
sighs you people cant be bothered to post. the fact that someone actually posted on his own blog the day before. sighs and more secrets are like broadcast from blogs. yupp you didnt hear wrongly broadcast. so its like relatively irritating. so i dont see the point of posting either. its indirectly promoting scandals. people simply have nothing better to do than making fun of others, spreading scandals. such boring lives they have. but i dont think they should be going on like this. after all, its others' life. they happen to know it, they keep to themselves. ah nvm, talking to them about this is simply a waste of time. school holidays are here. i dont feel the excitement within me. its just an excuse for more training. only thing is that i get less of iqbal and calvin's you know and iqbal's 'heh'. but i guess i can catch up on my sleep while iqbal embarks on his holiday mugging. okay i can't wait for 205's gathering. see you guys then. byes.